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I walk around the gold chambers of my room,
quietly for the last time.
Appreciating the beauty I once treasured and adored,
now I despised.
Thankful for the realities I have discovered
and sorrowful for the remaining life I must burn alive.
I sit at the end of the bed, a pen in my hand.
I write you a final note.
Hoping,
I'll meet you again.
In a life where perfect is just a definition.
Not a fulfillment.
For now,
I'll settle with a simple goodbye.
May these words remind you of that little girl,
with daisies in her hand and truth in her eyes.
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My love,
Time has run thin and I have grown tired.
Forgive me if my cowardice prevailed and I left you in the rain that night.
I understand if forgiveness is not a glory I can attain.
But, hear my final whisper before this girl lay as remains.
The thin wires I walked have taught me a few things.
The perfect life I desired, is not truly what I wished.
I am scheduled to depart this world a little too early but I'm satisfied.
There are no priest to judge and only you can I confide.
I have learned the secret to a perfect life, love.
These are the tricks I have mastered and painfully lived in.
Perhaps If I have ran away with you that night, life would've turned out differently.
But, unfortunately it didn't.
I wish to hear you once more but life won't let me.
So, here in my castle made of tempered souls and silenced teeths.
I confide my lessons in hopes you'll understand me.
First lesson.
"Smile!"
Nothing big, right?
Just keep that curve upward and bright.
The most flawless and simplest facade.
A small price to pay for sanity.
No one needs to know the pain, so I kept it in.
Only the weak and pathetic demand the comfort of others,
and I refuse to be your burden.
So, I told myself to keep smiling.
Till nothing feels real.
Till those tears become diamonds.
Second Lesson.
"Lie."
Everyone did it to survive and I admit, so did I.
I stomached the insults and kept pretending.
I sat still and became that picture perfect model everyone adores.
No stains on my soft porcelain, rosey kissed petaled skin.
The misery kept within should be carried with poise and grace.
Only the helpless and frail let their guards down.
I never knew the value of truth, till I was robed of it.
So, I kept faking and lying.
Till the battlefield I stood on was even.
Till I was disgusted of who I am.
Final lesson.
"Follow."
My thoughts are never mine.
It must go according to what society demands.
Don't open your mouth if nothing sweet comes out of it.
Be the blind puppet who takes the punch and keep going.
That is what grandmother told me, when I married him instead of you.
I was giving up life itself for my family and they were thankful.
I can't say I feel the same.
So, I chastised myself everyday.
Till I fit the mold.
Till loving you was the only real thing I know.
The perfect life.
Demands the best of us.
The perfect life.
Transforms angels into demons.
The perfect life.
Exists only in the mind.
So, i'm thankful for you, love.
You are the memory of a happy life once lived.
You are the best parts of this imperfect world combined.
I never stopped loving you. Know that well.
You are the final thought I'll forever cherish.
I will close my eyes and meet death with a smile.
I love you from the deepest of my scarred heart.
I gladly part your side.
Till we meet in the garden of tomorrow.
Au revoir,
Mon amour parfait.
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I glance at the sunset slowly encasing my body in it's glorious light
I take the rope and place my head in its humble hands.
A field of daisies at my sight.
I breathe deep and step into the heavens warm glow.
Free and loved.
[❣ Empty Crown- By Yas]
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