Losing You

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April 30, 2020
Cassie's POV
Today was the day. The day I lost my fiance, my best friend, my first love. Jack and Ocean stayed in Florida as to Kristinp and his sisters were visting. I took the other car and drove to Fairfax with Ashley. I went back to visit Alex's grave.

I got out of the car. Mom was standing in the doorway. I ran to her and said "Mom!" While crying hysterically, Corbyn went and hugged me. I went to my room and pulled out my engagement ring that Alex gave me. I found his sweatshirt still hanging in the back of my closet.

I did the best thing there was for me to express my emotion. I wrote a song

*All rights go to Gracie Abrams*
You told me something when I left but I don't remember
Maybe 'cause all I could do then was stare at the floor
I held myself 'cause you wouldn't, all wrapped in my sweatshirt
Wonder if you even noticed that that one was yours
When maybe I should've but I never told you "I'm sorry"
Know that I tried but my words always got in the way
Could you hold me without any talking?
We could try to go back where we started
I don't even have to stay
I don't even have to stay but
If I woke up with you in the morning
I'd forget all the ways that we're broken
I don't care if you've changed
I don't even have to stay
I don't remember the last time I heard from your sister
Didn't expect to but I sorta thought that I would
Wish I could tell you by now that I felt more indifferent
Catch myself thinking about you more than I should
And maybe I should've but I never told you I miss you
I almost said it but don't know if you feel the same
Could you hold me without any talking?
We could try to go back where we started
I don't even have to stay
I don't even have to stay but
If I woke up with you in the morning
I'd forget all the ways that we're broken
I don't care if you've changed
I don't even have to stay

I sent in the song and the recording with the help of Corbyn. A producer of Island Record luckily helped me mixed the song. With the approval of my two managers, Lori and Andrew, I was able to release the song today.

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CassieJames: I decided to write a song based on a relationship I had on my first love. This was one of first ones we took together. This boy was close to me, my family, and my best friends in VA. Check next post to understand why I wrote this
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