On my way to stardom

14. Bloodshot

Since my cover for 'never be the same' has such good reactions, it's been officially added to one of the performances for my debut showcase. Thank god Bang P.D. didn't decide to add another impossible choreography for this song. Phew.

Someone texted me so I go and check my phone in the middle of dance practice. I needed a break anyways.

Soobin: Shannon! I have great news!
Me: Soobin-ah! What is it?

I really want to see his reaction when he sees me calling him casually, it must be picture-worthy.

Soobin: ya! I told you to call me Sunbaenim!
Me: 😂
Soobin: Anyways, me and the boys got permission to go support you at your debut showcase!
Me: really? Daebak!
Soobin: ikr! See you there! I gotta go back to practice now, talk soon
Me: see you! Good luck with the comeback!!

It's a relieve to have friends' support at intimidating events like a debut showcase. I really wish Sav and mum can be here as well, but given the situation, it's not really possible...

'Ya, why are you slacking?' Mr Park suddenly storms into the dance studio, being grumpy as per.

I hastily try to put my phone away but my clumsy ass, of course, slipped and dropped my already ancient phone. The screen is cracked now and I'm pretty sure that's it for my poor iPhone 6.

'Sorry, manager nim.'

I turn up the music to 'fire' and start practicing the very feared 333 dance.

He just stands in front of the studio and shakes his head disapprovingly. I try to ignore him until he suddenly pauses the backing track.

'How many times do I have to tell you to smile? No one wants to see a stupid girl dances with a grumpy face,' he says.

'Sorry, manager nim.'

I start the music up again and this time, I'm smiling to the music when it's supposed to sound badass and, well, fiery.

He stops the music again and I'm trying my best to hide my annoyance and eye roll.

Apparently he noticed. He slowly walks towards me and suddenly I'm feeling intimidated and frightened. The furious expression on his face is just too familiar. It looks just like dad's.

I start backing up as he approaches closer and closer to me. In five seconds, my back is already against the wall. But he doesn't look like he's about to stop.

'Manager nim, I'm so sorry. Can you stop, please?' I say. My voice is trembling.

'Why? After being rude to me, you think you can just tell me to stop?' His voice is too quiet for this situation which makes him even scarier.

He is standing only a foot away from me. I can feel the heat that he's radiating off.

He raises his hand to slap me but I caught his hand just before it reaches my face. But his other hand is now wrapped around my neck. Something tells me any sudden movements will make him tighten his grip, so I'm trying to control my quickened breath.

'Manager nim, calm down. We can talk about it.'

'Talk about it? You idols never know how to be grateful. All you piece of shit ever do is order me around!'

Am I really that much of a brat? All the exchange me and Mr Park ever had was just about work. I've never asked him to do me any favours or talked back when he was being rude and discouraging!