Lights out

Tickle attack

I still can't believe this moment is happening. It just feels so right, and yet so fake. It feels as though this is a dream. As though the world revolved around us. I never want this moment to end.

"And lance" Keith continued. "Yeah Keith" I ask. "Can we keep this a secret,...you know until I, we're ready?" Keith responds. He still had a tint of red in his cheeks. He's adorable, just so perfect. "Maybe" I teased. "Maybe huh" a smirk came across his face. "Are you sure you don't wanna just keep it a secret? Or I'm gonna have to make you?" He asked in a playful voice. "Guess you gonna have to make me" I respond with my arms over my chest.

He pushes me down on his bed. I lay on his bed, my arms uncrossed with a shocked look on my face. "I will" he says almost like a whisper but not quite, dropping his voice down an octave to make himself sound intimidating. "Okay" I reply, my face going back to the playful smirk.

Keith looks longingly at my lips before he kisses me. I close my eyes as he starts to move down to my neck. Just until he gets to the top of my chest. Then he stops for a second. Was it just a tease, I wonder to myself. Then the smirk returns to his facial features. Confused I open my eyes and look at him.

Just as I was about to ask what he was doing, he starts to tickle me. "Keith, hahaha, s-stop, please, hahaha, s-stop k-Keith" I plead giggling. "I will" and just as he promised he did. He looked at me still smirking. I look back at him glaring. He rises himself off me a bit to look me in the eyes. "I'll stop if you promise to keep it a secret" He told me. "Not sure I will" I reply, testing him.

He stayed true to his word. He started again. I move around trying to get away from his dancing fingers against my rib cage. "S-stop" I laugh through the word. "Promise" is all he says as he continues to tickle me. This goes on for another minute or two of just pure torture. "Okay...okay...I w-will" I say almost out of breath. He stops, looking at me with a goofy smile on his face. "Promise" he asked. "Promise" I reply. He roles over to the other side of me close to the wall. We lie their trying to catch our breath. More so me, rather than him. After a few minutes of laying there we start to giggle a bit. If only this would never end.
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I lay in bed thinking about today. It was perfect. Almost too perfect. I get that he wants me to keep this a secret but what if the true reason is that he's ashamed of his sexuality. Worst, what if he's ashamed of me.

    I get it though. What it's like to be closeted. It sucks, being scared someone will find out. Being scared of how thy might react. Also just dealing with the weight of such a big secret.

    Rationally I know the team would never judge us. I think deep down he knows that too, but maybe he's just scared. On the bright side of things, at least we get to have the fun and excitement of teenagers who have to sneak off just to kiss or make out.

  By far the best part of the day was seeing Keith blush like that. I never imagined I would get to see that. Seeing as how most of the time he's either glaring or being serious.

  To say today was a good day is an understatement. I just hope things are as good tomorrow as they were today. Especially since we're all going to the space mall. Keith and I decided that's where our first date would be. Tomorrow is going to be exciting.

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Let's just be honest. I suck at updating but I also have little to no motivation to continue writing. I hope  quarantine is over soon. I feel like I'm loosing my mind. Hope you have a good day.