Jaden Hossler fanfic

part 9 - i hate it

Laurens pov
We had so much fun at the show and we will be leaving early tomorrow to the next location. I have to end things with Jaden before dinner. So i dropped of my stuff in our room and asked him to go for a walk.

jaden
lauren

"is everything okay?"
"i think this isn't right"
shut up Lauren you want this
"what do you mean?"
"Jaden i think we should just stay friends"
a tear dripped down both of our faces. I could feel the regret all over my body and i could see the disappointment and sadness in his eyes, what the fuck have i done.
"did i do something? everything was going so great"
"you did not do anything wrong Jaden. It's me."
"can i ask why?"
"I could tell you that i wasn't feeling anything between us or that i lost feelings or that i liked someone else or that liked you as a friend or that i cant see a future but i would be lying to you and myself"
"what are you trying to say Lauren?"
"i really don't know Jaden. I am just lost and i am sorry and if you hate me i totally understand"
"I don't hate you at all Lauren i am just hurt. I guess i need some space and time to heal."
"i understand"
ha was full on crying now and i felt like shit. nothing about that "breakup" felt right. i was lying to myself and him. I wanted this, i wanted him but i am doing this for his sake.
i just walked away crying and into the hotel where Chase was. I ran into is arms and balled my eyes out. I couldn't tell anyone what happened except josh and avani. so i texted then to meet me in my room cause everyone was hanging out somewhere else. They came and i told them everything. josh said that i fucked up and i had to get him back. But could i? I really did hurt him and he really didn't want to talk to me. I stopped crying, fixed my hair and makeup and went to Griffins room. Jaden was sitting alone on the balcony. Yes i was stupid and went outside. I sat down and looked in his eyes, they were red but not from crying. Okay from crying but he had been smoking and drinking. He said that he was going to go home and skip the whole tour and that hit like a train. I didn't want him to leave. I wanted Jaden to meet his fans, i should be going home not him. I texted Trent and asked him about it. He told me that he would talk to me i Jaden talked about going home. I decided to just go to my room and get ready to bed. I was brushing my teeth when the door opened. It was Nessa. She hugged me and said that she would sleep with me and Josh and Jaden could sleep together. I scrolled through social media and then got a text..

short chapter againnn
but quarantine is killing me so i will be writing alot for you guys❤️