Fallen Angel's Anecdotes (Obey me AU fanfic)

# 4 (Rebellion Era)

I am extremely troubled.

No, I am in trouble.

Apparently, I broke one of the rules of the heaven. I taught a forbidden knowledge to the humans. 

I... I cannot help it.

They are begging for salvation. In tears, they are asking our Great Father for mercy. 

They are so helpless.

Humans are so helpless. No matter how hard the remaining Watchers try to subdue the creatures born out of our Great Father's anger, there are still many humans meet death in the fangs of these creatures. As our numbers starts to dwindle and many of my brethren betray our Great Father, it is hard to keep humans alive and protect them.

And I...

I done the unthinkable...

I taught humans the use of weaponry and military strategies in order to protect themselves, something that we, Watchers, failed to do.

Out of the Watchers, It is me who knows weapon and military strategies so well. During the Celestial War even though I am nameless, I helped in the creation of weapons used included the flaming sword that Michael-sama used to ripped some of Lucifer-sama's wings. I am also included in the making of tactics used against the brothers.

But...

I never predicted that something I taught with pure intentions, to be able to protect themselves and their kind, will led the humans into sin of harming their own. Not only that... Humans dubbed me as a God of War which earns Great father's anger though this misunderstanding has been cleared but not all human cease their actions.

Then I been called upon by Michael-sama. There, I saw him and Simeon-sama.

Michael-sama look at me in disappointment. He said if only I behave well, I probably became an Archangel later on. But I know what is done is done. Simeon-sama asked me if I regret it, my actions against our Great Father.

Do I regret it?...

Since I start being a Watcher, I slayed millions of creatures born from Great father's wrath and i also saved many of human lives. Yet, I also seen corpses of humans I failed to protect when I am too late or too far away. Some are children not even old enough to walk, some are mothers whom in their last dying breath clutch their children away from the monsters and men who try to protect their loved ones even they have no strength and all of them died just because we, Watchers, failed to do as they plead.

These scene keep repeating and became more frequent as our number starts to decrease. 

Do I regret it? No. I absolutely do not regret it even it driven to sin if that is necessary for them to survive. 

I gave my answer to Simeon-sama whom look shock to with my answer.

Michael-sama give his verdict.

I would not be thrown in the Devildom like Lucifer-sama did. It is much worst. My existence will be the price of my sins.

But I flew away into the Human Realm. A coward, I am, I "ran" away from my punishment.

Forgive me Great Father for I have sin deeply. I will never ask for forgiveness for I will not regret my actions. To my beloved brethren that still in sky, Goodbye.

Sincerely,

Azazel