my protector

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⚠️TOUCY SUBJECT!⚠️

[The next morning]

(Caitlyn's POV)

I wake up to Caleb's arms tightly wrapped around me. He is literally holding onto me for dear life. He did that the whole night. I look up and I see he is wide awake. He probably didn't sleep at all.

"Caleb, did you even sleep?" He shakes his head no and I sigh. This boy will be the death of me. "Why not?"

"Because I didn't want to take my eyes off you," he says. "I'm too scared to do that now."

"I'm sorry," I say. "Go to sleep now. I'm okay."

"No," he whispers. "I'm okay."

I nod my head because I'm not going to argue with him. He always wins or we just get into a huge fight. I get out of his grip and I walk to the bathroom.

I open the door and the pills are still laying everywhere around the floor. I close my eyes not wanting to look at them.

"Caitlyn?"

I turn around, "Mhm?"

"I'll clean them up," he says. "Just go use Nick's bathroom." I nod my head and I walk out of his room. I walk down the hallway to Nick's room and I knock.

"Come in!" I open the door and he is sitting at his desk writing in a notebook.

"Hey, can I use your bathroom?"

"Did Zion's toilet break again?"

I chuckle lightly, "No. I just don't want to go in there right now because they are still all over the floor. Caleb is cleaning it up."

"Oh, right," he says quietly. He looks back down at his paper and says, "You can use it."

I nod my head and I go into the bathroom. I do my business and I start to look around. His bathroom is surprisingly clean. I thought it would be a mess.

I open the door and he is still sitting at his desk. "How are you holding up?"

I shrug my shoulders, "I don't know, Nick. I just feel so stupid and so worthless."

"You shouldn't have to feel that way," he says.

"But I do and I can't help it," I say. "I don't know how to get past it."

"You will get past it though. You can't give up though," he says. "You had me so worried last night."

"I know," I say. "I'm sorry."

He shakes his head, "You don't have to say sorry for the way you feel. Everyone has downs."

I smile lightly, "I know, Nick. Thank you."

"Anything for you."

I walk to his door and I open it, "I'll talk to you later." He nods his head and I walk back to Caleb's room. I open the door and he is on his bed staring at the ceiling. He has some tears rolling down his eyes.

I did that to him.

I walk over to him and I sit on the edge of the bed. I grab onto his hand and I hold onto it like my life depends on it.

"Can you promise me something?" He asks.

I sigh because I know what he wants me to promise, but I don't know if I can promise him that. He is going to ask me to never try to kill myself again, but I don't know if I can do that. It's not that easy. "It depends."

"Please promise me you won't try to do it again. I can't live without you, Caitlyn."

I don't want to worry him, so I just nod my head yes. "I promise."