All The Things I'm Losing For You (Crankiplier)

Bruh

(WELCOME TO MORE CLICHE BULLSHIT!!!! STARRING ME!!!)

Mark's POV

It's been a tough few weeks of school, but we are finally on winter break. The girls were spending the day together, so the boyz and I decided to do the same. My other friends are highkey pissed because I will be missing our semi annual bi-weekly basketball game to go to an amusement park. Chris has been a douche basket recently (probably because he has been hanging out with Dakota.) Darren is mad because he doesn't want to hangout with The Dildo Fucks™ either. I invited him, but he said he thought it would be awkward. Now here I am having multiple arguments over text.

Da BoiZ 😴

Chris🙄: C'mon man... you'd rather kick it with some f[I don't support this language]s!?

Darren💜: Woah man, cool it :/

Dakota: Not you too 🙄

Me: I'm not even gonna try right now cause I know yall cant hear me with your heads that far up your ass.

Dakota: I'm not even gonna try cause I dont socialize with you're kind.

Darren💜: Your*

Me: My kind? I'm comfused... I'm not the one with secrets 🤷🏻‍♀️

Dakota: Not sure what you are talking about. I'm sure you've got plenty 🤷🏼‍♂️

Chris🙄: Clearly he'd rather put on makeup, play dress up, and gossip about boys like some female.

Dakota: (.)

Chris: Make me a sandwich while you're at it babygirl.

Darren: I-

Darren: I can't make the game.

Me: I'll be over later Chris... we need to chat.

As this occured, I was also texting the other boys.

Softies

Me: They are MAD mad

Beef💛: Well, go with them if it's that important.

Me: But I'd rather go with yall 😥

Finley: I find tht hard 2 believe

Beef💛: No, they are your friends, we understand.

Me: Noooo! They are pissing me off anyway

Beef💛: Jesus, I'd rather you go with them.

Me: Ouch 💔

Beef💛: Its not you, they just already hate me enough.

Me: Well, they can hate us both now Can Darren come BTW?

Finley: 🙄

Beef💛: Someone will have to ride alone cause most rides are 2 and there will be 5 of us.

Finley: It will B me :c

Beef💛: No, we will have rotations! I wrote it all out, there are some flaws but it works.

Finley: Fine...

Me: Yay!!!!

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We arrived and Ethan whipped out a piece of paper.
"So the first groups are: Merk/Darren, Me/Max, and Finley!" He announces.
"Great..." Finley says sarcastically
We all wait in line next to our partners but chat as a group. It was nice to see Darren getting along with Ethan and the others so well. Ethan and Max were being super flirty and Finley was gushing about it to me while Darren agreed with him.
We went through a few rotations before finally deciding to hop on our last ride. The pairs we ended on was: Darren alone, Finley with Max, and me with Ethan. I was very thankful that the ride was a ferris wheel because i'm fairly sure the bones in my hand would be broken if I had to ride one more roller coaster with Ethan. We eventually end up at the front of the line and hop into some of the carts. (idek what you would consider those... gondolas???) We started to go up when Ethan broke the short lived silence.
"Bad time to mention that I am afraid of heights?"
"You have to be kidding..." I aggressively push air out of my nose.
"Only just a little," he giggles.
"We really did choose the best time to ride this," I admire the sunset.
The colors blended together like a painting. I jumped as Ethan grabbed my hand. I looked over at his orange tinted face from the stunning sunset. He breathed in slowly and held it for a while.
"Don't be afraid, look how beautiful the sky is. Look at how the sunset is consuming the silhouette of the city. Look at the different shades of reds, oranges, yellows, pinks, purples. It is truly something to appreciate, yet we take it for granted. It's not everyday you get to experience a sight like this. Take in the moment and make it last." I smile. His grip on my hand loosens and I give his a small squeeze.
"I've never been great at living in the moment. I'm always worrying about how my actions will affect my future, and what people will think of me." He starts.
"Truth is... I think i'm afraid of disappointing people I care about. I don't wanna lose anyone, I love every single person in my life right now."
"Is there something currently that you fear will disappoint them that maybe you haven't told them?"
"I think so..." he looks at me frowning with a gloss in his eyes.
The ride slows as it approaches the end.
"We can talk about this when we get home, for now... let's live in the moment," I rest his chin in my hand as I tilt it up and wipe away a tear with my sleeve.

I dropped Ethan off at home and walked straight over to Chris' dorm.
As he swung open the door I really had to suppress the urge to punch his stupid face. I quickly pushed past him as rage turned to sadness. Hot tears sung my eyes and my throat burned.
"What's your deal?" He questions clearly ticked off.
"MY deal?! I don't even know you anymore Chris!" My voice cracks.
"You have just never known the real me. You were the only friend I had after my dad died, you cared! Now you're a stranger." I raise my voice.
"I thought your-"
"Exactly, I never told you there was no mom in my picture. I had two dads Chris!"
"Well, that doesn't change anything buddy. You arent like your parents..."
"So if I was you wouldnt be my friend?" I ask quietly
"Do you blame me?"
"You have to be joking..." I furrow my brow.
"I need to leave, I can't be friends with a homophobe it goes against everything I believe..." I wipe a tear from my face and walk out. My heart was shattered, I just lost one of my best friends. He isnt the same person as he was when we met, and I don't like who he has become.

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Last chapter was kinda cringe. This is kinda a filler chapter... Writers block be like "lmao, what now hoe?" Also, I didn't edit this and I typed it with acrylic nails so... sorry about any mistakes.