Complicated Love Story (Book 2)

Chapter 6

January 18, 2020

I woke up late today, but it's okay since it's Saturday. I don't have any schedule for today, except meeting with Mina this afternoon. I don't know what to feel.

"Cub, come out. You haven't eating breakfast yet."

I stretched my body after I heard Hyung's voice. I didn't bother to answer. I went to CR and did my morning routine. I have nothing to do this morning. Maybe I'll just clean my room.

"Good morning, Hyung." I said as I saw her in front of the mirror. Fixing her long hair. "Going out?"

She looked at me for a few seconds before she continue to fixed herself.

"Yeah. Nayeon and Jihyo wants to hangout. Wanna join? We will ask the others too." She said.

I shook my head as a response. Since I have plan for later. "Pass. I'm meeting Mina."

"Why?" She asked without looking at me. "Catching up?"

I went to dining area and grab some bread before I walk back to the living room.

"Hmm maybe? I don't know either." I simply answered. It's true tho. I have no idea what to say when we meet.

"Ok. Just message me if something happen. I'll go now. Don't forget to check the locks before leaving."

I nod at her reminder. I'm alone now. It's so boring. I looked at the time and it's already past 10 am. So I decided to went to my room and clean the mess. I don't know when was the last time I cleaned this.

After an hour of cleaning. I decided to take a bath and fix myself. I'm planning to eat my lunch outside. I'm too lazy to cook. And I'm not in the mood to eat heavy meal.

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12:45 pm

I'm already here in the park. I have nowhere to go so I decided to just stay here. I messaged Mina awhile ago that I'm already here. And she said that she'll be here in a few minutes.

While waiting for her, I'm thinking about what I will say to her. I really have no idea where to start.

"Hey. Sorry for waiting."

I looked at her. And I realized how much I missed her. Everything about her.

"It's okay. How are you?" I said as she sat beside me.

"College life is stressful. And you?"

I smile a little before I answer. "Same as yours. But I'm doing well."

A moment of silence after that. I guess, both of us don't know what to say. We are getting awkward with each other. And I'm aware of that.

I broke the silence as I asked her the question I've been wanting to ask.

"You didn't call me that night. Why? I waited." I'm not looking at her direction as much as possible. Afraid that I can't tell her what I have to say.

Silence......

"Bam, called me that night. We waited for new year." She almost whisper. But I heard it. I clearly heard every single word.

I didn't speak. I admit, it hurts. I was at his place before. Yeah, before.

"Sorry, Chaengie. I swear, I wanted to call you. But he called me first."

"I understand, Mina." It's just painful.

I stood up. I take few steps away from her. While she's just looking at me. I think I'm making the right decision. It's for me. I want to protect myself this time.

"Can we just stop this, Mina?" I finally said it. There's no turning back.

I didn't hear her speak, so I looked at her direction. She's not looking at me this time. She's looking down.

"Why? I thought you won't leave me? That you will wait for me until everything is alright."

I don't know what's the point. What's her point.

"I thought so too. But I'm tired." I want to get near to her. To hold her, but I stop myself. "I can't stay like this forever. I know I can wait for you. But I'm not sure about your feelings anymore, Mina."

She finally looked at me. And all I can see is sadness. I hate it.

"If you want, I can stop my relationship with him. You know that I love you."

"That's what I want before. You should've done it long time ago." Not now. Not until I got tired. "You shouldn't date him in the first place."

"I know."

I know that it's not just me who's hurting. But I have no choice. She left me with no choice. I'm trying my best not to show any weakness in front of her.

I closed my eyes tightly. "This will be the best for us." And I want you to be fully happy without thinking about my feelings.

"You'll come back, right?" I heard her voice cracked. "I'll wait."

"If everything will be ok. Maybe I'll come back to you."

"Promise me, Chaeng." She's crying.

I went to her side and smile. I want to hug her, but I shouldn't. It will be more harder for us.

"In time. Just let me go for now. "

I stare at her for few minutes before I remove the necklace that she gave me on our 4th anniversary. The necklace that we promise not to remove because it's the sign that we are for each other. I held her hand and place the necklace that makes her cry even more. I can't stop myself anymore as my tears run down from my eyes.

I stood up again and turned my back. I walked away without looking at her again. It's not easy. It's really hard. But we both need this.