Forbidden Love

Saddness

~Amanda's POV~

I woke up sweating some, Sweets had made his way to my chest, his head there with his arm over my stomach. I groaned and I saw Jug passed out on the floor next to his dad. I pulled out of Sweets tight grip and sat up on the bed. I looked over seeing a sleeping Malachai, he looked so peaceful, weird. I stood up and walked over to him. "Chai." I whispered as I nudged him, all I got was a groaned. "Malachai?" I pushed on his chest, still nothing. "He could sleep through a train." I whispered again. I giggled and jumped on him. He moaned out a uncomfortable groan. "The fuck?" He spoke in a low raspy voice. "Morning." I spoke looking down at him from the spot on his lap. He ran a hand through his curls and looked at me. "Why am I up Amanda?" Malachai yawned as his hands found their place on my hips. "Was lonely. And I like how you treat me when you aren't a human tank." I laid on his chest listening to his heart beat. "I think I have human feelings." He chuckled which was hot. 

"How is FP?" Malachai asked and I sat up and looked over at the older man who looked in pain. "Not sure. I need to wake him up before they get up." I spoke as I stood up and made my way over to FP, I rubbed his back and he began waking up some. "Hey.." He spoke low and I sighed. "Lets shower?" I asked and he nodded as he sat up slowly with a face of discomfort. "Gonna be sick?" I asked as he stood up. He didn't answer, so I got my answer. "Okay okay. Come on." I pulled him into the bathroom and shut the door. He knelt down in front of the toilet and coughed but nothing. "Warm shower or cold?" I asked as I sat next to him.

"I hope you know I wasn't planning to...ya know. I just wanted to get high and drink." He leaned against the wall. I crawled over and laid my head on his lap. "I know. I just worry about you. Jug too. I want you to be healthy and alive. I can't keep taking care of you Forsythe. I can't keep taking care of Jug. And Sweets now...being more indecisive with shit. And now Malachai. I just...I can't run a gang and have to take care of everyone else...I need someone to take care of me once.." I spoke low but he heard me and knew I had tears falling from my eyes. "It's a hard life. Lonely too. You have to be able to take care of a gang but know you still have strength to care for yourself. Maybe I put to much pressure on you too. I know I'm not helping...me being a drunk. I'm suppose to take care of Jug and yet you are. And with Sweets, he's, shit man I think he's always been in love just hides it with hate. And Malachai, I have no words but he showed you he cares. So you are fucked." FP laughed which made me laugh. 

"Get in the shower asshole." I slapped his chest and walked out seeing Sweets awake staring at me, then saw Malachai staring. "What?" I looked behind me then at them again. "Wait..fuck." I groaned rubbing my face. "Upstairs. Both of you." I said as they stood up and walked upstairs and I following behind. I walked into the living room and sat on the couch. "Okay. I'm guessing you both heard that shit. Malachai you first." I said looking at him as he sat on the chair. "Uh, for one? You take care of all of them? You are what? 21 at least?" Malachai stared at me. "20. But yeah I do. I've taken care of all them as kids. Well, Jughead, Toni, Cheryl, Sweets. Jughead's little sister Jellybean. I still am but less so I guess." I spoke low as I looked at him. "Wow. That's..strong of you darlin'. Takes some balls to man up like that and still do it. I can see why my boys like you being a Queen. Born Leader. But one problem." Malachai looked at Sweets.

"Not in love. Just love you Bug. You are a born leader. A Queen at heart. But yes one problem. Him. Or me." 

~Later That evening At The Whyte Wyrm~

FP wanted all Serpents to be here tonight to get me the full crown. They knew I was Queen but it needed to be done right. FP walked up to the stage and grabbed the microphone. "Ya know I've been in and out of the Serpents since I was younger than my son." FP pointed to Jug who sat next to me and Betty. "And it's been....a wild ride. Good times, bad times. But through it all The Serpents stuck by my side while most other people turned their backs on me." The Serpents were cheering and hollering. "My own family including. Now letter of the law says I can't be here, in the Serpent Den, That I can't associate with my friends, my real Family, my Blood! And I've been thinking about that, and it'll be a cold day in Hell before a Snake lets a Pig tell him what to do!" I shook my head, he was right we don't listen to Pigs, never have and never will. "Northside wants me out of this gang, well they better bring a coffin, cause FP Jones is NOT retiring. I am not going gently into the night, I am here to stay! So bring the fire!" I stared at FP in shock then to Jughead who held the same look. But it didn't stop everyone from hollering and cheering him on. "What's he doing?" Jughead looked at me and I shrugged but ran to the stage and stared him down.