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Dear oppa,

I would like to start this with a thank you, really. Thank you for everything you have done for me, from helping me with singing, to helping me to be happy again. The whole time I am with you I felt like the happiest girl on earth, from how you treat me, like a princess, telling me sweet things and being there for me when I felt like no one is. Trust me when I say I would never ask for a better person to be by my side, I really would never trade you for the world. Remember the first time we met?...

Dear Seungjin eonni,

Eonni!! I love you so much and thank you for everything you have done for the group. Being the oldest can be difficult right? I won't know how it feels but it seems hard since most of us don't even listen to you, sorry about that. You have always help us feel better which I'm grateful for. Remember that time CJ messed up on stage and got really emotional about it after? That she didn't even want to eat or talk to us but rather just continuously practice without stop? And how you were the only one that could get her to talk to us and eat again. That is only one example of you helping us, but I can never stress this enough that I'm really grateful for you. Oh and about this...

Dear Yerin eonni,

우리의 지도자 (uliui jidoja, our leader) thank you for everything. It's only my 3rd letter but I'm already repeating 'thank you' over and over again and many more to come but it's okay. I really could never ask for a better leader, from being there for us to helping us with interviews and to just making sure we all have food in our stomach, you really are a great leader and i'm very grateful for you. But please don't hurt yourself with little mistakes that we do. Also please...

Dear Danoh eonni,

Eonni!!! I love you so much!! We are only 1 year apart but you have really taken good care of me which of course I'm super grateful for. From all the late night chats to constant bickering. Whenever I had problems I would alway go to you and you would really know what to say right away which really amazes me. Thank you for always sticking up for me too especially with things going around the pass few weeks. I really owe you one. And for our korean barbecue outing, let's take a rain check on that. Anyways...

Dear CJ,

We are the only ones with the same age so of course this would lead us to being closer, which I don't mind at all since you are always so lively and loud it boosts my mood up too. Thank you for always cheering me up and helping me get my mind off things. Even though you are only a few months younger than me I still see you as our little maknae, as always, no matter what, you being 90 will still be our maknae. I really love you so much CJ and I'm glad I've got to meet you in our last few years as a teenager. I can't believe....

Dear Channie oppa,

Oppa!!! I think out of all of stray kids you're the closest i'm to which is nice. Thank you so much for being there for me, you really are like a big brother to me. Thank you for trying to break the awkwardness the first time we actually hung out properly. You really are a great leader too, to all of stray kids and I'm so shocked that you can balance the work load of producing as well as making sure all of stray kids are healthy and are working hard for your 'stay's. I'm also sorry for always disturbing you when you are producing, it's just so fun to see a song come to life you know. I love you big brother. Also I can see how you look at...

Dear Minho oppa,

DON'T FORGET TO FEED DORI OKAY! Seeing you so lovely to your cats really warms my heart cuz you give of a cold vibe but would go all soft towards your cats which is so adorable. Anyways, thank you for how nice you are to all of Starlight and for letting me be Dori's mother. Sorry for...

Dear Changbin oppa,

Binnie oppa, please stop disturbing the maknae line too much or you will just get more insults from them ㅋㅋ. We aren't really the closes but I still got to say thank you for that one specific time when...

Dear Hyunjin oppa,

Jinnie jin jin oppa!!! Should bring KKami more often, I haven't seen him in FOREVER! Maybe if you give kkami more attention he might like you more ㅋㅋ, anyways...

Dear Lix oppa,

Thank you for being there for me too, after channie oppa i think you're the 2nd closes to me. Remember all the time we used to sneak out to get ice cream at 2 am and when we got back Channie oppa would be there with Sungie with crossed arms, mad that we left in the middle of the night. It was really fun then. With Chan oppa i see him more as a big brother where as i see you as a best friend. I love you my happiness. Omg remember when I started calling you that?! Then sungie would....

Dear Seungmin oppa,

Minnie oppa, our dandy boy, thank you for everything too, you've always made sure i was okay even if you tried to not show it, i could feel it, to have someone look after me like a fairly protecting me. We've had many deep talks, like...

Dear Jeongin,

Skz's baby maknae, you've really stole CJ's heart didn't you. Well she is a handful but i think you will manage ㅋㅋ. Having someone CJ's and I's age in Skz really brought us closer didn't it? Since they would always group the maknaes together. Oh and remember when...

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a/n: this is something like the future, the next chap would be about how it got to that point so do look out for it hehe