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•𝐚𝐧𝐱𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐲•

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Days and weeks has passed since then but everyday was just as happy as the next with every Stray kids and Starlight member getting closer and closer with each other having the time of their lives. With some downs but it was nothing major till today.

"Oppa," Goeun said cheerfully bumping into Jisung and plopping herself next to him on the sofa, "Can we go get ice cream?" she continued.

"Hold on let me just finish this game and... okay let's go," Jisung said getting up from the sofa and to the front door to put his shoes on, Goeun rushing after him and out the door they both go.

Walking to the nearest cafe, met a stray puppy on the way. "Omo, annyeong puppy," Goeun said kneeling in front of the puppy and pat it's head. Jisung kneeled down too, the both of them in front of the puppy. After awhile they both stood up and continue their journey to the cafe.

Once reaching the cafe, Jisung held the door open for her as she went straight to order her flavour of ice cream, plain vanilla. Jisung placed in his order too and proceed to pay for their ice cream when Goeun insisted she paid for her own. With a lot of time bickering the elderly lady working behind the counter said, "Aww, why not let your boyfriend pay for it this time and you can pay for the next miss."

"Huh, oh we're not-" the both of them said and the same time to the employee.

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean too, I just thought you guys look so cute together my bad," she said apologising to the 2 in front of her. Goeun started to blush and as she turned her head away to hid that fact. Jisung passed his card to the worker to pay, the lady took it and smiled at the two. Goeun walked away quickly in embarrassment looking for a seat for the 2.

After paying, Jisung sat opposite her holding her ice cream then passing it to her. The 2 ate in silence when fans started to spot them.

"Omo that's Jisung oppa and Goeun eunnie," a female said to her friends as more and more people started to notice them. Not knowing what to do they decided to just smile and wave to them, still enjoying their ice cream when suddenly more fans started rushing into the store as many has posted that the 2 would be in the cafe.

The cafe started to crowd around making Goeun feel slightly overwhelmed, seeing this Jisung grabbed her hand and bowed to the fans and taking off, afraid that Goeun make get another anxiety attack as this isn't the first time it has happened the few months with each other.

Most fans left them to be but many were still following them, Goeun's heart beating faster and faster she started to shake, Jisung feeling this from the still connected hands, he went to a stop and tried to calm her down. Fans caught up to them and proceed to crowd around them, this time closer, not helping the situation as they were oblivious, Jisung slightly raised his voice,"I know you guys want to see us but please give us a little space!" Still no movement, just them getting closer.

"Please move back, Goeun is not okay right now!" he said once again, this time catching the fans, right in front for them, attention, them pushing the outside rings out to create a bigger and more spacious area for the two.

Soon everyone was starting to worry for Goeun as she started to tear up, feeling as she can't breathe, her attacks hasn't been this bad since she was 17.

"Hey hey hey, it's okay, breathe in and out, follow me, in... out... in... out..." Jisung stated to the now crying female. Following him she could slowly calm down as Jisung asked if she could walk back and she shook her head, he picked her up and slowly walked to their dorm but before he said bye to the fans with them fangirlling over how Jisung has picked her up. Many snapping pics as he rushed off.

Reaching the dorm he sat on the sofa with her in his lap, rubbing her back and patting her to try to clam her down more. Soon she was back to a stable state when Chan walked through the front door.

Chan confused on what is going on, Goeun on Jisung's lap, he tried to give them space and quickly walked off when Jisung called him.

"Hyung," he said in a whisper, "Goeun had an anxiety attack again, this time worst and many fans saw, what do we do,"he continued this time Chan walking towards them to see how Goeun was doing. She was still crying but her breathing was better as Chan patted her head and gave her a hug.

" Let her calm down more and we'll talk to the company about it," Chan stated and left to go onto his undercover twitter account to see if anything was said.

To his surprise, Goeun and Jisung was trending already, with pictures of the two in the cafe to him trying to calm her down in the crowd of many fans to even him picking her up. Many said nice things like, hoping Goeun was okay, feeling sorry for them and even getting mad at those who were crowding around them. Just right on time Chan received a call from their manager.

"I need to speak to Jisung, you, Goeun and Yerin now," he said sternly.

Minutes later, Goeun was all better and sitting in the living room with the other 3 and both their managers.

"Goeun are you okay?" both the managers asked before continuing on to what they are going to do. Yerin sat next to her rubbing her back after getting filled in to what had happened from Chan.

"JYP said we should put an official statement out and ask Goeun to go on a few week break with a pause in the 'JYP:GenZ' project," Starlight's manager, Ms Yu, spoke up.

"I don't want to take a break, I love performing," Goeun said, worried she might have to be absent for a while.

"It's for the best and maybe you can even get counselling sessions," Ms Yu encouraged her. With that being said they proceed with their plan.

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𝐀/𝐧: 𝐡𝐢 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬! 𝐒𝗼𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝗼𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐥𝗼𝐰 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝗼𝐫𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝗼𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝗼𝐭𝐡𝐫 𝐟𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝗺 𝐠𝗼𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝗼 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝗼𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 2𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐟 𝐧𝗼𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐚𝗺𝐬 𝗼𝐟 𝗺𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝗺𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐬 𝐢 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝗼 𝐟𝗼𝐜𝐮𝐬 𝗼𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝗼 𝐡𝗼𝐩𝐞 𝐮 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝. 𝐀𝐧𝐲𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐡𝗼𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝗼𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝗼𝗼𝐤 𝐬𝗼 𝐟𝐚𝐫. 𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐠𝗼𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝗼 𝐛𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝗼𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝗼𝗼𝐤 𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝗺𝐲 𝗼𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐬𝗼 𝐲𝐞𝐲 𝗺𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐡 𝗼𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐛𝐲𝐞 𝐧𝗼𝐰 𝐩𝐥𝐬 𝐯𝗼𝐭𝐞 𝐜𝗼𝗺𝗺𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐝𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝗼 𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝗼 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐧𝗼𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞 <3