Highway Don't Care||Lashton

Chapter 1

Ashton's POV

I woke up to my alarm blaring SWS. No one understood why I did this.
Apparently my music gives mum a headache.
I groggily made my way to the bathroom closest to my room.
I never understood why we had a 2 story house, with 3 bathrooms and 5 bedrooms.
Because it was only mum, Harry, Lauren and I.
I guess it's better though so mum and Lauren each have their own bathroom and me and Harry have to share a bathroom because "we're girls and we need more from for makeup and shit". Whatever.

Anyway. I headed to the bathroom and took a quick shower because one: I took forever to actually get out of bed and two: my wrists and thighs were hurting enough but the hot water made it worse.

It was the third most dreaded part of my day. Breakfast. My second was dinner. And my first was school.

As I was walking downstairs I could smell bacon.
Three years ago I would've been happy that mum cooked me nice breakfast before school. Now I just feel bad that I can't eat it. I don't need to get any fatter than I already am. They already tease me enough as it is.

I guess I should explain.
I'm gay.
I cut.
I starve myself.
Most nights I eat dinner and then force it back up so mum doesn't suspect a thing.
I get beaten at school.
Everyone hates me.
I need to die.

Go ahead. Call me whatever you want.
Call me weird, a freak an emo.
You know what that stands for emotional.
You shouldn't call me that. We all have emotion.
Some people just let their emotions get to them.
Some people are like me.
I'm sorry if you are. I would never wish this hell upon anyone.
Even the people who I hate the most.

I guess I should tell you why I hate school so much.
Flashback
It was 3 years ago. I was 14 at the time. When I felt like something was up with me.
Like I was different from the other boys in my year 8 class.
I was at my friends house on a Friday night after a footy game. Typical teenagers.
When I got dared to kiss one of the guys. I didn't hesitate. I didn't have a problem with this. Most or my mates would.
So I kissed him.
It was short and not-so-sweet.
Because from that moment, I knew for sure I was gay.

I left his place straight away and didn't even give a reason.
They were all judging me. I knew they were.
Mum picked me up at a bus stop about 10 minutes away from home.
I was full on sobbing.
The car ride home was silent. Except for my crying.

When we arrived home my siblings were asleep so mum decided it was a good time to talk.

"Sweetie. Want to tell why you're so upset"?
"I kissed a boy"
"And what's so wrong about that. Wasn't it just a dare or something"?
"B-but the thing is. I-I think I'm gay"
"You don't need to be ashamed. I'm happy for you Ash"
"Thanks mum"

So now that I knew mum was ok with it I didn't try so hard to hide it.
That was a mistake.
At high school, news spreads quickly.
Everyone knew about the dare. So I told them it was just that. A dare.
When my best mate, Calum, who wasn't there on Friday night, came up to me and asked me if it was true.
I told him it was just a dare. Then he asked me if I liked it.
I told him the truth. Calum was my best friend. He wouldn't judge me.
I told him I didn't like it because I didn't like this guy in that way.
Then I told him I was gay.

I had been sick with tonsillitis so I stayed out of school for two weeks.
When I arrived back I wasn't expecting what happened next.
The majority of the school laughed at me.
The only people who didn't were the couple of people who obviously were the opposite of homophobic. If you get me.
Calum told everyone.

And the name calling has already started.
Everywhere I went I heard people "whispering" about me.
Faggot
Emo
Gay
Freak
Loser
Fat. What has that got to do with anything?
Something I heard hurt me more than anything else though.
"I bet he slits his wrists and starves himself and listen to emo bands. Typical gay".

Maybe I will.

I was going to confront Calum until someone stopped me.
There's this guy at my school named Michael. He has blonde-ish hair and a weird fringe.
I didn't really know him well so I was expecting to be punched or teased by him.
He didn't do anything like this.
Michael took me down to sick bay and told me I should go home and think about what I want to do.
I know what I want to do. I want to punch the shit out of Calum.
But you can't cause you're a little faggot.
Shut up.

When I got home I went straight to my room and cried.
Weak

Mum came in to check if I was ok.
I told her what I told Calum 2 weeks ago and she called him a lowlife something.
I tried not to laugh because I was meant to be sad.
Flashback over

A/N- hey so anything mean said about any of the boys I don't think is true It's just for the purpose of the story.
And I don't think any of the stuff about Ashton either coz Ashton is life. But yeah. I hope someone bothers to read this and the next chapter will be about Luke. And then about chapter 4-5 they'll meet and yeah💁
Tell me what sings I can dedicate the chapters to and I'll choose one that relates coz I have my story all planned out basically. Even the end.
Someone does die in it😰 but I'm not telling you who💸💸💸
I promise it won't be Ashton or Luke or Calum or Michael. So it's cool. But it's someone very important I guess🍩🍩🍩

But yeah I probably won't update until next Thursday coz school ends on Wednesday. Then Christmas holidays. This was so long like Calum's dick ok I shall leave.
I love you byeeee❤️❤️❤️