She Who Blamed God and He Whose Dreams are Not for Himself

Chapter 2 : Concerns and Concealment

With Andrew's help, Celyn and I have been staying in a new small apartment on the outer side of town and work for me has been nothing more than just small chores since the tv series is ready, I went back early and Celyn was on the sofa reading a book. I have been worried at my sister ever since that, Celyn is in her second year of junior high school by the time the fire happened, with moving to a new apartment and recovering the wounds from the fire, she was laid off from school for 2 weeks at maximum. The scars above her eyes are clearly visible and at first, I was concerned about how it could have affected her social life, I was afraid of her being bullied and badmouthed by the people in her school, however Celyn herself seems to be calm around that issue. I sat next to her on the sofa and I realized that the book she is reading is a school book, she studied on her own and she has been taking care of the apartment by herself, out of concern I said to her " Celyn you can rest for a while, okay, the burn on your hands are not healed yet, you can study later after your burns are healed properly" she looked at me for a second, " its fine sister, I can still read without hurting myself, I promise you, I am not injuring myself after all I need to catch up with the material in school." She said as she continues reading her book. Sometimes when she is studying, I tried to help with subjects like English and I am glad that Celyn is capable by herself to study Math and Science since I am dumb, on my high school days I was failing every math exams but I managed to graduate properly, well I hoped that Celyn could pursue higher education than me. I patted her head gently and asked what she wanted to eat and her answer is the same as always, "anything is fine with me". That answer is concerning to me, Celyn wasn't always like this, this side of her is new even to me.

"how long do you plan to study today Celyn?" I asked her while she was reading the book, " I have been studying for a while, maybe in another 30 minutes, why do you ask sis ?" she replied without leaving her gaze on the book she is reading, I stood up and said " I was planning to go shopping today, we don't exactly have a lot of clothes left and we could also eat outside, we will go after you study okay ?". she nodded and continues reading her book. I was about to take a bath when Celyn asked "Is Mr. Andrew coming with us today?", my footsteps were paused for a second and I said "he is not coming Celyn, he is busy with his work", Celyn nodded and continues to read her book and I went inside the bath, I thought to myself how Mr. Andrew has been acting very kind to us to the point of Celyn was expecting him to come every now and then, Celyn must be very fond of him...

I took a short bath and Celyn after me and we went outside shopping for clothes, furniture, and essential stuff really, like new towels and stuff. Celyn wasn't picking her clothes on her own, every time I showed her a t-shirt or a skirt she always said that she would take them, we also went to get her new shoes and books since her only book is what survived from the fire. Along the way I saw a saloon and I thought that a haircut could cover Celyn's burn scars, so I asked her if she wanted to get a haircut, well to be honest I insisted and she didn't have the chance to decline, well at least I wouldn't have to worry about her burn scars for a little bit. We ended our little shopping trip by going to a food stall nearby and ate a few steaks as dinner and we went back to our apartment.

It was a little late when we arrived back at our apartment, Celyn said that her stomach is full and she went to her bedroom in an instant, I tried to relax and I sat on the sofa, I couldn't help but to think back to what happened and tears started to form on the edges of my eyes. The silence inside the apartment was broken by a mail notification on my phone, It was Laura messaging me, she asked how Celyn and I have been ever since that day and of course, I replied that both of us are getting better each day thanks to both Andrew and her, but I told her about Celyn not wanting to pick anything from food to clothes and she said that we should drink together tomorrow after work, she said that it is better to explain the situation directly than messaging, I said yes, mainly because I need her advice on Celyn but drinking with a friend can also avert my attention from what just happened.