Tanya x Male!reader (youjo senki fanfiction)

y/n

Y/n's POV;

I sighed after my husband was buried.

His grave...why did it have to happen to him..?

Why...

Sighing once again, I turn around to walk off before I paused when something burned in my stomach and something warm came from my throat and out of my lips.

Looking down... I saw blood.

Before everything suddenly became dark.

Everything was quiet until a voice came.

"Y/n."

It said.

I huffed and tried to open an eye to look.

There was light, warm light from afar in the dark place around me.

I stood, blinking before saying, "who are you?"

It didn't respond for a while before it said it was God.

I didn't believe it.

"You're just like your husband...a man who doesn't believe in God..."

I sighed.

"That's how we fell in love, after all, we were logical and rational people on our jobs." I commented with a quick roll in my eyes.

This voice is quite irritating to be exact, calling itself God...how daring it was for it, ehh..?

"Y/n...just like your husband, if were to place you both on a place that will put you on the verge of faith in me, will you pray for me?"

That's quite a stupid question, really.

"That would be cheating knowing people always believe in faith when all is at lost in their life. Of course, they'll only come crawling to 'you' when they want something." I said.

The logic was there.

It wasn't like people don't always come for God when they really want something, they'd, of course, have faith for him when they're in desperate times.

"I see...but it also seems you've gotten quite used to being a woman, perhaps becoming a man will give you a good chance in the wheel of reincarnation?"

I shot up.

"Reincarnation?" I repeated only one word.

Is that even real?

"Is that even real?? I've never believed in such things at all." I said.

"It is real. Here, how about one last meet with your husband before you both go along and down together?"

What..!?

My husband?

I gave a look of contemplation before the sound of someone else shot up from behind me.

I yanked myself around to see him.

In the same clothes he wore when he went to work that day and never came back.

"Sweetheart?" I mumbled, a smile slowly peeking from my face as I slowly took slow and steady steps towards her.

"Y/n..? Love? Is that you??" He asked.

I nodded before tearing up and crying over his embrace.

"I'm so sorry. I left you." He said.

I sniffled before saying, "don't be...you didn't do it on purpose, sweetheart."

He sighed while giving a firm hold on me before we parted when the voice spoke again.

"Are you both ready to get into the wheel of reincarnation? I know a world you'll both be faithful to me for."

I frowned.

"If God existed then you'd be the devil!" I yelled.

"Y/n... don't be like that."

He commented on my words before everything suddenly became dark and the sound of crying came over my ears to also cry.

Opening my eyes, I glanced up at the wooden ceiling before glancing around to see a lady holding a spoon in front of me.

She chuckled before feeding me what seemed to have been disgusting food.

Ugh!

As soon as I gulped over the food, a cry came out of my mouth without consent and fumbled my arms around with the lady commenting out on it with, "oh! He's a strong one! Ahahahh, come now, y/n l/n, you have to eat well just like Tanya to grow big and strong!"

Y/n l/n?? Is she referring to me? With a masculine name??

Wait, am I?

Did I reincarnate??

I think I did.

Crying kept coming out of my mouth without stop.

I kept hearing another baby crying as well.

Continuing with my cries, I glanced to see a mirror and two cold blue eyes meeting mine.

My crying ceased into whining as I stared at the mirror, staring at the eyes in which belonged to another baby that also stopped crying and stared back at me.

"Oh? Looks like Tanya and y/n stopped crying when they saw each other..." The lady holding me said as I kept eye contact with the baby in the mirror.

My whining stopped and I just stared quietly unto the mirror.

That baby reminds me of him... Is it even him? No, there's no way that can be true at all.

That devil did this! This is a curse for a reincarnation wheel!!

I continued to stare before I glanced back up when the lady held a spoon in front of me.

Everything was quiet the whole time from what I can suppose was feeding.

After it all...she placed me down on a crib in which I glanced around for a bit before meeting that baby's cold blue eyes again.

It felt...warm than cold..it felt familiar.

I stared at the baby before sleep overtook her followed with me there after.

Three-year gap

I sat, staring in front of Tanya who stared back.

We've been staring at each other since we were aged one here in the orphanage.

I only heard this from the priest but he said we were abandoned by our mother who just gave us to him.

Sheesh...talk about good parenting.

I kept eye contact with Tanya before I whined over the weight of one of the orphans boys who suddenly tried to climb behind me.

"Nuuuhh!" I whined while trying to shove him away.

With that, he cried and began to try and hit me in which I responded with shoving him away from me.

I frowned before glancing over to see Tanya eyeing the boy who tried to climb me before closing a few gaps beside me and sitting close to me.

I stared.

"Tanya." I said.

She shot a look and blinked before patting my head while saying, "y/n."

I smiled.

She smiled back.