Opening my eyes was the hardest thing to do, because all that came to mind was Phil, and how I didn't tell him I loved him. I promised Phil i'd be strong, but that promise i've already broken once. If Phil knew, he would be disappointed. The day I met Phil, we talked day until night about stupid things. Then when we would video chat he would make me smile, because he said my smile was the perfectest thing he's ever seen. Which is a lie, because when I told him about my depression and my self-harm, that's when he got sad, but he understood. When me and him met, he hugged me, but it wasn't like any other hug i've ever had. He made my heart race, and his heartbeat against mine made me feel safe. But now it's all gone.
I quickly got out of bed and walked out of my room to see Ian and Anthony on the couch, in a serious conversation which I hated to eavesdrop, but I couldn't help myself.
"Dan isn't okay here by himself, and we both know this Anthony." Ian said looking into Anthony's eyes.
"Yes, I know, but he has his own decisions you know." Anthony said, looking aggravated with Ian.
"I know, but what if he tries the same thing he did before?" Ian questioned.
"Then.. Then i'll be the one to save him again." Anthony says standing up.
I quickly cover my mouth and I quickly walk back into my room, hearing Anthony's footsteps.
"Let it go Ian." I hear Anthony whisper loudly as he opens my bedroom door.
"Hello." I say pretending like I came out of my bathroom.
"Morning Dan, how was your sleep?" Ian says with a bright smile.
"Fine." I say crossing my arms.
"Dan, can I talk to you alone?" Anthony says looking at Ian, then to me.
"Sure." I sit on my bed as Ian walks out of the room.
Anthony sits next to me on my bed, and I prepare myself for the worst.
"Dan.. I know you're not that strong anymore now that Phil is gone. And I know he made you feel perfect, and he made you feel worth it. And yeah, I know how broken and fucked up you are. But I promise you this, I wont let you go down like Phil. I wont let you go down at all, okay?" Anthony says looking me in the eyes, piercing my heart as he continues "You're my best friend, just like anyone else, I care about you. Maybe a ton more. You mean so much to me and when I saw you bleeding all over the foor I was scared because I thought i've lost you. Please, just stay." He says, near in tears.
"..I can't promise you anything Anthony, i'm sorry.." I say looking down.
"You don't need to Promise, just try." He says putting his hand on my shoulder.
"Fine.." I mumble.
Stay strong Dan, one day we'll meet, and i'll protect you. Phil's voice haunts my head. You'll be fine, they're only scars. You're still perfect my Danosaur Watching Anthony and Ian walk out of my room, left me with all these past thoughts, slowly killing me. Who the fuck am I anymore? I'm not ME anymore, i'm not who I use to be. Where is happy me at.. Happy when Phil was here.. I died with Phil, and no one is here to save me anymore.
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Never Forget Me (A Phan-Fic)
FanfictionIt was a typical friendship, as so they thought. Until Dan fell for Phil, and Phil fell for Dan. The day Dan was going to tell Phil his feelings, was the day Phil was murdered. But no one found him, or his body. Dan knew something was wrong, and so...
