What Was Once You

Chapter 5: The missing piece

I woke up without realizing that today was Saturday but I woke up later than usual because I stayed up a bit longer thinking about how I got bullied back in my middle school days and how I pulled off excuses like Sora for getting beat up, but I was only bullied for being the poorest student in the school. I did my usual chores which was cleaning my room and also cleaning a little bit of my sister's room because she's "too young" to do any actual cleaning yet even though she's 13 and she's gonna turn 14, 8 days before Valentine's day which is my loneliest day of the year but it doesn't really bother me that much since I'm basically alone for the rest of the year as well. As I went to the living room to drink some water, I overheard that there's now 35,000 total cases in Japan and its starting to spread to other countries that are near us, but it really amazes and frightens me how in 2 weeks, there's already nearly 50,000 total cases being reported. The first ever patient still hasn't been found and the initial cause for this disease also hasn't been found yet but a lot of doctors are thinking that this was caused by a animal or a mutated disease, but either way it's spreading at a very fast rate and doctors should be more worried on the vaccine and other people's health.

My mom wasn't here in the apartment and it was almost time for lunch but I decided to wait for her while I watch something on the tv that doesn't relate to B.T.D at all but I couldn't do it since it was everywhere. The talks of this disease only makes it more obvious that no one in the country was prepared for a outbreak in this time and age even though we're currently in the "technology era" where technology saves everything including the planet itself but we did have a lot of time to prepare for the worst and we didn't take advantage of it, so now we suffer. My mom finally returns with grocery bags and she tells me to pick up the rest of the groceries from the car and I saw that mom had already gotten us food from a restaurant. After I got the groceries and after we eat, we got an unexpected knock on our door and mother says that she'll open it but I was just expecting a new neighbor or mail being delivered to us personally but it was someone that I've felt like I've seen before but I can't seem to know who it actually is. There he stood, a 5'11 man with short hair and a beard that's already getting close to turning grey with a suit like he just came out of work, standing in our living room and a sudden amount of anger grew in me. The man finally spoke to my mother and then to me: "Hey Gon, its been a while since I last saw you and wow you've grown into a fine young man who's handsome but the hair could use a little bit of work." My anger rose more than before and I knew it had something to do with this man but I still don't know who he is or what he's doing here. "Hey mister, who are you exactly?" As I asked him this question, the man had a confused look on his face but he replied back and said: "who am I? Well this might be hard to hear but I'm Yagasi Ingara, your father, and I know you have a lot of questions about me but I'm here to answer it all and also to properly introduce myself to my daughter who's no longer a baby anymore."

I knew something was wrong here but I couldn't believe what I just heard come out of that man's mouth, and I couldn't take it anymore so I charged at him but before I did anything, my mother stopped and touched my shoulders because she knew what I was gonna do. "Gon, even if this scumbag abandoned us at the worst time, hitting him isn't gonna do anything at all and you've always asked where is my father at, well now he's here so at least try to hear him." I sigh and finally let him explain something and he finally talked. "I went away because I needed to work for my job and I was earning a bit of money but I was also having trouble with your mother because I couldn't juggle a job and my family, so once I had to travel to west Japan, your mother didn't want to come with me so I left you guys and I took the job." After he said it all, I didn't know what to say or what to think since he did a move that a rich bastard would do before they got rich. "You bastard, you absolute failure of a man. How do you leave your entire family behind for money? Do you have any fucking idea of how much I suffered without anyone else by me? I got bullied, nearly died, moved schools twice, had to raise my own sister which you didn't have the balls to do while mother worked her ass off to get us in a stable condition while you with actual money, didnt even lift up a finger for us. How do you sleep at night knowing your two children which should be a man's most important things in life, suffered so much while you failed to be someone important? Its even a shame that it took you so long just to stop by and tell me all this, like seriously out of the nearly 13 years that you've been gone, you chose to do all of this while there's a disease spreading rapidly across the country but let me guess you came to Tokyo because the city that you were in, got cases of the virus?" The room went quiet and everyone looked at me like I was a whole different person but this was all trapped inside of me for 12 years and I just had to say it to him just so he could at least understand what he did wrong. "Whatever, you've introduced yourself and also embarrassed yourself in front of everyone so go ahead and live your glorious money life without ever seeing your family again. And don't even look at my sister, you failure. You didn't even sent one letter to us to at least know how we are but where was my father when I needed him?" I started to tear up because I didn't just have anger in me, I have about every emotion except happy because how can I be happy when the man I'm suppose to look up to, betrayed me for paper? He finally decided to leave without ever looking back and saying a word to us and right as he left, I yelled out a long and passionate "FUCK YOU" and now he's gone and probably forever but I don't care because I've suffered enough to be caring about him.

Before I went to sleep, I received a couple of messages from Yui, apparently she's staying at a villa that Sakura's father owns and it looks pretty large but looking at that villa, I got a very selfish idea that I need to discuss with the club. I look at the calender and I realize that Misaka's birthday is very close but so is Valentine's day which got me thinking: Should I give anything special to someone and should I give something to the girls or is that too creepy? I'll see if they actually want anything from me but I know that Sora will give something to Sakura at some point.