What Was Once You

Chapter 7: The Past Hurts

A couple of days have passed from my announcement to the club and still no progress has been made even though our group chat has been quite active for a while. Its mostly been used for everyone to talk about their day and have a conversation with each other but unlike them, I'm still serious about the idea and I keep count of the amount of cases in total. But I've been noticing that the school has been updating the entire status on their website and everyday, the situation keeps on getting worse and the possibility of our school shutting down for good is always getting higher. I decided that one day, I was going to talk to everyone else personally and this was my only chance to save my plan.

I had called Sora by phone and he didn't sound too confident about the entire plan of going far away from his house for an uncertain time period but he said that he'll try his best in order to go which to me seemed like a yes but I had to communicate to Sakura in a much different way because I'm a bit afraid to talk to a girl over the phone so I just ended up texting her and sending a few voice messages to explain it faster and more clearly. After a few insults, name calling and a long hour, I finally convinced her to go ahead with the plan under one condition and that condition was: 'if Yui goes with the plan and fully agrees to go than I'll go as well' because apparently Sakura didn't want to feel all alone with two dudes for a long time which I can understand and respect at least. My final person to talk to was none other than Yui who I could not get in contact with at all for some reason but after hearing some stuff, Yui recently broke her phone while she and her other friends were both hanging out so I couldn't really do much with communication at that moment except to just talk to her in person. Not only will this prove that I'm not a total pussy but it will also confirm my plans and I will finally be able to relax with my closest friends nearby me while things go bad in other places.

After a day of busy club work, I finally asked Yui to hang out this Saturday but she immediately mistook it for a date so I had to spend a couple of minutes convincing her that it was only for club related stuff and she agreed to my invitation. As time had passed, Saturday had quickly approached me and even if I said that it was just club related stuff, I still felt nervous talking to Yui about this sort of stuff but maybe it was just me getting scared already about the entire topic. I always knew Yui was a closed person but that only made things more complicated for me to tell her, after a few minutes of deciding what to wear, I finally went casual and we both met up at a small cafe where I usually go to whenever its winter but once I saw a glimpse of Yui coming in the cafe, I immediately regretted everything because now I just wanted to hang out and get to know more of Yui instead of doing what I needed to do. After we had our short meal, we went to a nearby park to talk about the entire plan on a bench but I kept on getting distracted by her for some reason and this never really happened to me before when I talk to someone, but it's happening at the worst moment.

"Hey Yui, I have something to talk about and this is mainly the reason why I brought you here at the park with me today but I've been talking with the others about this whole thing and I wanted to tell you over the phone but I just couldn't get in contact with you. Anyways, if you remember what I said at the clubroom that one day then it has to do with it so do you wanna go and stay at Sakura'a villa for a while if school gets suspended and if things get worse?" I felt like a huge pile of weight had been lifted off of my shoulders but since I asked her this, her smile on her face quickly disappeared and she didn't say anything for a minute like she was thinking a lot about it. She didn't look at me for a while until she finally said in a quiet voice, "yes". I felt relieved but also a bit guilty just by hearing the tone of her answer and she finally looked at me in the eyes to say something else, but for reason I knew that she would say something else.
"I agree to your invitation but not for the reason you expect, I'm going to tell you this since you actually seem interested in me and how I'm usually feeling but also for the project that you're putting together with us. The thing is, I've been living with Sakura for almost an entire month and the main reason that, I've been kicked out from my house by my mother who thought I was more of a waste of space then a actual daughter but I really don't blame her since I really couldn't help her from not being abused by my father."
For the first time, I didn't have anything to say or to do but just stand there and let my friend continue telling me more but the more she talked, the more she became closer to having a breakdown. I still couldn't say anything since no one really opened up themselves to me personally and I don't think anything I say would possibly cheer her up but I got what I wanted, i felt like I got way closer to yui than ever before. We kept walking together, talking about random stuff since she just stopped talking about her past which I thought was understandable but we stopped at a empty playground to go on the swings until she finally gave up and Yui started to cry infront of me while also apologizing to me.
"I'm so sorry for making you listen to me and for putting up with me daily even though, I know you don't want to but I just don't wanna be alone again and I don't wanna feel the way I do. I know you wanted to have some fun today but I decided to be selfish instead and ruined the day, I'm sorry."
I'm not the best type of person for these sort of situations but my hand acted on its own and it touched her hand but I wasn't really thinking of romance, I just wanted to make her feel better. I didn't know exactly what to say but I said something that my mother once told me long ago when I questioned about my dad.
"Hey, don't worry its not your fault. Nothing is your fault and things happen." After that I just decided to add some words from there as best as I could.
"Things always happen and most of the time, it won't go your way but don't start apologizing because you've been through a lot, the past hurts and the only way we can go further and have a good time is just to start thinking more positive and not think too much about everything. Remember me, Sakura and Sora all care and love you for who you are, that's why you're still in our clubroom and that's why I'm inviting you to stay with us for a while and that's why Sakura let you live with her for almost a month but also that's why Sora invited you to the club and let you stay for a long time. Even if you have one friend in total or people who talk to you a lot then you're never alone and I won't let you ever be alone because I'll be here to support you in anyway possible. So join us and let's make more new precious memories that you won't never forget."
She stopped crying at the end and another day ended but this time my plan worked out in the end and that's enough to make me proud.