What Was Once You

Chapter 8: The Day I Hate Being Single

After an intense weekend, I had decided to just make the most out of the club time and make the most out of school since I already know that we're not gonna be here for much longer. But its Monday and its the worst day of the year for me at least, Valentine's day. I never really got in a relationship before since I was usually the laughing stock in every school that I was in except for this one. Of course I had a ton of crushes but they never really lasted since they were out of my league or stolen by one guy and that guy was my bully, Hashira Scion. He's always gotten with the girls that I liked and worst of all, he's shoved his relationships straight in my face like he knew that I liked them. But ever since we moved to Tokyo, I felt like I somehow have gotten a second chance at life without his presence digging me in the dirt as always until one day, I saw him in my same school during lunch and I immediately felt dissapointed but also pissed since I couldn't get a break from it all.

As soon as I arrived at school, the smell of chocolates, love and rejection was in the air and there was no way to escape it. Luckily I brought some treats for my friends just so they could have something to eat during work time but originally I wanted to give one only to Sora since he probably has no one to give him something at all for today but then I just decided to give one to the others as well for making my year better. I'm thinking way too much right now so its time for some dialogue so as soon as we started to fill out some papers and reports for this month, I got my backpack out and it was time to give them the chocolates but I'm wondering if I'm actually gonna get any this year from anyone else that isn't my sister.

I stood up and I made an announcement about the chocolates and it seems that everyone liked the idea except Sora who had a look of both embarrassment and happiness. "Sakura here's your batch and I hope you enjoy it, even if I bought yours from the dollar store." I joked about it but in reality, I got them all from a good store for a good price. However Sakura purposely tried to make a scene and tried to put me on the spot by saying: "Oh my, is this a sign for you confessing your love for me on Valentine's day and in front of everyone here? You've got guts for someone who looks like he gotten rejected by his crush." Of course at this point, I've gotten used to being chewed out by Sakura and her smug responses to everything but that somehow cut a little bit deeper than before for some reason. I couldn't let her win this one so I quickly responded with: "right as if I were ever so straightforward with my confessions to someone who practically drains my patience daily." Everyone at this point already knows that its all just light jokes and banter so I gave her the first batch of chocolates which were the ones in the poorest condition.

I then, gave the second batch to Sora who looked at me like a teenager looks at their parent after an embarrassing moment but he didn't really say anything about it except a very quiet "thank you". Last but not least, I gave the last batch to Yui and she looked really excited to get something from me, which at least made me feel like I didn't waste my time to get something for my friends on this monstrosity of a day that we all call Valentine's day. Before it was time to go back home, they all started to munch down on the snacks that I gave them until I noticed that Yui already had what looked like chocolates in her bag but I barely spotted it. Just a friendly reminder, I don't peek at women's purses or any sort of bag and I'm most definitely not a pervert in any sort of way. Anyways right on the bag, there looked to be what seemed to be some sort of heart that was pretty shiny and from this, I knew that this was no ordinary gift from someone. It was a romantic gift to a girl on Valentine's day but right when I saw that bag of chocolates, I had an uneasy feeling of both nervousness and surprised but at the same time I also could see this coming from a mile away since Yui is a beautiful, nice but shy girl who supports her friends when they need her the most. I didn't say anything about the bag and instead tried to ignore it since I might come to conclusions too early, but they all finished eating the chocolates with a combination of good conversation, a surprising but beautiful sunset hiding in the windows and a not so gloomy Valentine's day which is the one day that I absolutely hate being single. 

As I returned home, my sister immediately greeted me with a hug and the classic yearly chocolates that she gives me but this time, it felt a bit different than usual but it was mainly because I realized that no one besides my sister actually gave me anything back. And those same thoughts never left my head that same night as I slept knowing that the same shit happened to me again even though I desperately wanted it to change. My thoughts of the bag of chocolates that yui received from some other person kept making me think of the worst things possible but I don't understand why I cared so much about that moment and why its haunting me so easily. I guess that's just another day of a loser on Valentine's day.