Little Liar.

Wonderwall (9)

Jim lit a cigarette and inhaled sharply on it. "Kid, you've changed so much." He laughed coughing up some tar. I smiled weakly at him, "So have you Jim, but I guess Jay keeps you on your toes." He looked at me hurt and shook his head, Alex's eyes widened. "What do you mean by that Mr Sharrock? Are you suggesting your brother isn't here?" Alex asked confused by his pained eyes, Jim just shushed him and smoked more of his cigarette. "I'll tell y'all this once and if I dare repeat it one of you need to be shot." Jim inhaled before Suki took out her notebook to write what he says. "Jay left me and his petty wife a few days ago, the wife has a kid as well he's called Harry. I got to have sympathy for the wife as Jay was madly loopy. Always on the drugs and believed Miles would save him." He explained before standing up to leave. "Wait, Jim what do you mean he believed I'd save him?" I asked still in shock. Jim rolled his eyes and stroked my face. "Kid, I heard many tales of you near hells door. Jay believes it's time to be repaid." Jim whispered before letting go of my face and walking off. Alex was speechless and ran after him but Jim yelled, "I told y'all a threat. If you want me to have my arse in this case then someone will be shot." I gulped and let him go.

Alex and Suki led me back to the bench and gave me a glass of water. "What does he mean ' close to hells door '?" Alex asked me making me tense up. Suki noticed that and yelled at Alex, "The hells your issue with that? I am more concerned that Jay left a son and wife." I couldn't help but think how that kid and wife now felt. Traitored by an ex gang member, their life in full danger. "Fuck you Waterhouse, you work in the mental health department of the police service. You're basically scrap meat." Alex snapped bitterly. I couldn't believe it. They were fighting over what was more important. "Oh yeah? The only reason I came here was to keep Miles alive and to get off my anxious arse!" She spat proudly. I blushed shyly and she noticed. Alex looked away and knew he'd lost. "If he has a son he probably knew he had to run." She theorised. Did she read my mind? "But why run? Wouldn't that make the outcome worse?" Alex asked, I knew the answer but didn't know whether to say it. "Yes of course, whoever he's running from would go after the family as well as him." I sighed, Suki's face went pale and Alex nodded. I saw Eva coming over with an angry look on her face. "Shit...I need to make a move." I mumbled before Alex saw her too. "Eva Peterson." Alex muttered.  I nodded numbly and she stood facing us with a grim look. She'd changed.

I looked into her dark brown eyes and admired her effort in staying tidy and pretty. "Fucking hell, I thought you were dead Kane." She gasped making me flinch. Alex let out a small giggle and offered her a plate of chips. "Reason I thought you were dead was because of Grey Whistle Tim. He made you have that bloody allergic reaction and then afterwards attempt to take your own life." She explained laughing a bit. I lowered my gaze and Alex noticed that. Alex rubbed my back which left me feeling sick. "Why would you remember that, are you so sick?" I snapped bitterly. Eva stopped eating her chips and gripped my arm. "I remembered it because after that night, Agnes saw me and Tim. She weren't fucking happy. She told us you were leaving and would happily leak our secrets." She sighed as if she was guilty. I nodded and Alex asked, "You mean the secrets of the Bunnymen case?" Eva choked on her chips. I glared at Alex. Suki saw I was getting angrier and more sick by the second. "Yes those secrets. How do you know of them?" She tensed up then she knew the answer and muttered, "alright arrest me. I am as guilty as Kane probably is." Eva stopped touching my hand as I had begun shaking due to fear. "Guilty?!" I spat loosing my anger on this woman. She looked frightened. I'm glad she felt like that.

I stood up ready to punch and Alex and Suki had to hold me back. "Miles please calm down, she's right you're guilty as well!" Suki begged but I wouldn't stop shaking and wanting to punch her til she was out cold. "She has no fucking right to say anything about Agnes or my suicide attempt!" I yelled, breathing very hard now. Suki's eyes widened and she grabbed my shirt to pin me down to the floor. "She can't even feed herself shit, I don't even accept her sympathy." I screamed weakly. Alex helped Eva to safety and was terrified I was unraveling so easily. I cried in pain as my heart raced painfully. Was this a panic attack? "Miles please take some deep breaths. I don't want you passing out." Suki suggested. I couldn't hear her but a muffled of her blasted my ears. Everything was blurred like a true life crime show. I sobbed painfully as she dragged me to her car. "Eva will be questioned, as will you." She explained. Then everything went dark.

Jay and I were on the Mersey ferry when I first experienced that feeling. "When we get to Wallsey we will meet Noel alright?" Jay explained through draws of his cigarette. I nodded and felt that pain in my chest. It felt like a heart attack. I begun to whimper and tremble as it got worse. "Kane? Are you alright there?" He asked hearing my whimpers. I tried to speak but it was like I was on mute. I ran to the other side of the ferry, pushing through people as tears spilled like buckets of hot lava down my mountain like cheeks. What if Noel isn't there? What if he cancels the deal? Who else will be there? Will I be arrested again? Why am I picked to meet new people? Those questions and more dazzled my mind and I begun to hyperventilate. Jay caught up to me and stared awkwardly at me while my attack grew.

The world would not stop spinning and I was mumbling my inner fears when Jay grabbed my shoulder making it grow another level. "GET OFF ME! GO AWAY!" I screamed with more tears rolling down me. Jay gulped and helped me sit down. I was wheezing and sobbing and the occasional scream came out. "Kane, please you're scaring me. What's wrong?" Jay asked, it must have been the millionth time he asked. I was calmer now so I whispered, "I don't know Sharrock. Everything is spinning, I have a thousand questions in my mind, I can't breathe, my heart is racing and I feel numb and sick." Before Jay hugged me and it instantly calmed me. "After we see Noel I'll give you something to calm you." He whispered. Drugs. I didn't want them but I accepted it. It was the only way I would calm down until one night I overdosed.