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Friends? (Part One)

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Anne's POV

Tonight started off so well. The summer seemed to be headed off to a good start. Until...

"I'm just not ready...you have so much love to give and I...I just don't think I'm right for you. You're so kind and loving, and I know I don't deserve it. You deserve so much better than me." He teared up as he said all this, and it felt like my world came crashing down.

My boyfriend of six months, Gilbert Blythe, someone who promised me a real life fairytale, is standing in front of me, telling me, someone who is ready to wholeheartedly give myself to him, that he wouldn't do the same for me.

Perhaps I made a mistake in falling too hard, too fast. But it's too late now.

"I don't want someone better. You're more than enough for me." I tried not to sound too desperate, but a part of me believed that maybe, just maybe, he'd be willing to still stay with me and give us a shot. I'll give him as much time as he needs to understand his feelings for me, I just don't want him to leave me...not yet...not ever.

"I want to stay...but I can't deny the fact that my feelings are fading. I want to stay for your sake, because you deserve to be treated right and loved so much, and be given time and effort without asking, just like you do for me--" I cut him off abruptly at that sentence. I was about to ask him something important, and I needed him to be as honest as he could, even though I knew it would most likely hurt me.

"Are you still with me because you want me...or because you pity me? Because I don't want you to think that you have to be with me for my sake. You have a choice and a say in all of this. Your feelings are just as important as mine in this relationship. I need you to be honest...completely honest, Gil. Please." Tears threatened to fall, but I tried to stay strong and held them back.

His face showed a pained expression, and tears started to flow from his cheeks. I leaned in a little closer to wipe them away with my hands, but as soon as my fingers touched his skin, he backed away and shook his head.

"I'm sorry. I truly am. I still care about you, but it's not the same anymore. I meant it when I told you I loved you before, as much more than a friend, and I promise you I never lied. But things have just changed and I don't want to lead you on. It's better if I stop being with you, so you don't have to waste any more time or effort on me." More tears fell from his eyes, and I desperately wanted to wipe them away, but I knew better.

I needed to distance myself from him for a while. I've just realized how much I pushed myself to him, and it must've been hard for him watching me invest myself too much, when he just wasn't ready to do the same thing. We both did something wrong to each other here.

"So...this is it, then? We're done?" I managed to say quietly. It hurt so bad, and the tears wouldn't stop spilling from my eyes at this point, but I needed closure.

"As lovers, yes, I don't want you wasting yourself on me anymore, it's hurting me to watch you do that to yourself. You deserve someone who'll give his heart and himself to you. But...if you'll still allow me to be in your life...I still want to be good friends."

Friends.

A simple word.

Not too long ago, calling him that had no effect on me whatsoever.

But now?

It hurts to think that it's all he can be in my life.

But it's what he wants.