I Won't Fade Away

Trip and Fall

Justin's POV

I sat in the Café scared of what she'll say. I really needed to explain myself. I love her but I have trouble showing it sometimes.

The bell on the door rang and I automatically looked up. I was hoping it'd be Hannah, but it was just an old woman.

As I waited for what seemed like forever, I scrolled through instagram and came upon Hannah's recent photos. There was some dude with her in most of them. I grew suspicious. There were tons of pictures from just last night. They seemed to be in a bar or something. I thought she was going to a concert?  He had his arm around her shoulder and she had a wide smile on her face. I couldn't help but feel a bit jealous. That's MY girl.

The bell on the door rang again, but this time I didn't bother looking up. I was too focused on who this dude might be. Just as I was about to further investigate, someone took a seat in front of me. My head shot up.

It was her. My beautiful angel. I gave her a seductive smile as our eyes met.

"I've been waiting for you princess."

She looked at me with a confused expression.

"So. Explain yourself."

She was so blunt and straight forward. I loved that about her.

I put down my phone and urged my mouth to speak. "Hannah. Don't ever think I don't care about you. I love you so much. You make me a better man, and I really don't know what I'd do without you. The day before yesterday, was one is the greatest days of my life. I got to kiss your soft lips for the first time in 5 months. You're my-"

She cut me off before I could go on, "Who is she, Justin?"

"Hannah I-"

She cut me off again, almost shouting this time, "Who is she?"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath."I got really drunk that night. She's an old friend from highschool. I saw her at a bar, we caught up, and we exchanged numbers. Next thing I knew, we were dancing and making our way back to my place. We didn't have sex. I promise you."

Her eyebrows furrowed. She shot me a look full of disbelief. "Bull shit! How do you explain the condom, Justin? "

I looked at her, my eyes popping out of my head."If you'd let me talk, I'll tell you everything that happened!!!"

She rolled her eyes then nodded.

"We got to my house, and had a few more drinks. She was about to leave, but then she kissed me. I was hesitant, but I was also drunk. Next thing I remember was that I was almost about to put the condom on, but I stopped dead in my tracks when I thought about you."

She crossed her arms and sighed heavily. "I don't believe you."

I chose my next words carefully, making sure she'd at least take them into consideration."You don't have to. I just want you to know I love you."

I really meant that.

I could see her eyes start to tear up. Fuck, I really didn't want that to happen. I didn't want this whole situation to happen.

She started to speak, "I don't know Justin.., I need time to think about this."

I looked at her, trying to not show any emotion.

"I understand."

She looked down at her feet then back up at me.

I wanted to show her how much I really loved her. This was the first long distance relationship I actually lasted in, and I feel I've fucked it up. I didn't want her to leave so soon. I wanted to be in her presence for a little while longer.

"Can I make you lunch at my house? Maybe we can talk about it there." Shit. What was I thinking? I don't know what came over me but the words slipped out. She probably thought I just wanted to get into her pants. Before I could take back what I said, she answered.

"Sure."

 "Well let us leave then." I said getting up