𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘. / 𝙈.𝙋 𝙓 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙓 𝙆.𝘾 /

𝐕𝐈𝐈 • 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧.

Friday morning

y/n;

I wake up to the sun hitting my eyes, I look around to realize how I was gripping onto Mattia's arm. It's my fault I know it. I have a habit of hugging things when I sleep. A comfort tactic, says Dess and Sam. I guess it makes me feel safe about sleeping in a big and cold bed. Especially after my parents died. I slowly get up and head to the bathroom to get ready for the morning. After I'm done I go downstairs, I make sure to not wake up Mattia--I may not have standard morals but I have respect. I go downstairs to be greeted by avani. 

" Hey Y/n!" she says smiling at me. 

"So, you down to go shopping tomorrow?" She asks, eating her breakfast at the table. 

"Sure," I agree, maybe we will get along better this way. Me and Avani eat breakfast together and spent the time talking to each other. Until finally, Mattia came in the dinning room rubbing his eyes. 

''Oh, that's a bellissima view for sore eyes," He smirked at me. 

"Mattia stop," I sternly look at him, shaking my head at a confused Avani. 

 "he's going insane, Don't pay attention to what he says," I explain. 

"Am I though? I could've sworn I felt you grip onto my arm as we slept.." He obviously teased. Avani looks at me with widen eyes and I close my eyes in embarrassment and dissapointment. 

"No. Its not what you think. That didn't mean anything, I just... that's just a habit of mine, I--" 

 "--I know, Y/n. I'm just joking. You don't need to explain yourself to anyone, relax." he laughed.

 Then everything goes silent. How dare he mock me and the way I cope with the very last feelings I show? After he slept in my room, under my roof, yet he dares make fun of me?

 "you know what, Mattia? I am at least capable of showing respect and comprehension when I want to, But you," I scoff, standing up from my seat, "its apparently so difficult for you to be halfly DECENT. You really don't care at all do you? You flirt with me and act so friendly yet when vulnerablity is shown you coward away into feeling nothing!" I scold, dumbfounded. And at that moment, my heart started to ache, a feeling I've stopped feeling so long ago. I didn't know why, It just did. He sipped his coffee before replying to me, emotionlessly.

"If you're incapable of controlling yourself and being a competent leader...just say that."

 "Fuck you." I spat, leaving the dinning room with Avani shouting my name.

Y/n

"You sure its over here?" I question, trying to make sure we are in the right place.

 "For the last fucking time, y/n. YES, I've been here before!" Mattia shouts at me, angry. 

"Don't you dare shout at me, you bitch!" I glare at him.

 "Its always about you!" he argues. 

"Just shut up and get out the car," he sighed. We get out the car and I examine the abandoned warehouse. we crouch and take a peak look inside. We immediately spotted them and I could feel the blood running through my veins. I see the tattooed cross on their shoulders, they are definitely one of the Santos. 

"I cant wait to kill them all," I anticipate, wanting to get this over with. My insanity is kicking in. 

"Calm down, Hermosa, we must think about this before we get caught," he explains.

" What is there to think about? Just call in for back-up and kill them all. Theres not many of them here, anyway." I argued. 

"Just shut up and listen to me for once," He glared at me.

You know, it might not be a bad idea to kill him too. Before I could think anything else, Mattia was already running towards them. He's planning to take the credit all to himself!  I cant let him kill them. I waited for this. My drive to shed blood wont let him have it.

Just shoot him. You can have it all. Just shoot him.

I pulled out my gun and aimed it at him, he furrows his eyebrows in confusion, Until he realizes what I was planning to do. I shoot at him but he doges it. The Santos look at each other and start to run. He starts to shoot running members as I stand watching him. What are you gonna do now, Polibio?

"What have you done!" he shouts, angry. He walks over to me, furiously. "You crazy bitch!" He draws his gun at me, pointing it to my head. I look him in the eye, 

"Thats right and what?" He looks down at the pressing gun on his stomach, "What are you gonna do about it Polibio?"

"I warned you. I will not hesitate to kill you in any second if you try to screw me over again," I smiled. He chuckled, 

"You...are truly something unheard of, Y/n. Let's go." He dropped his gun and walked away, confidently turning his back on me. We've established some sort of twisted trust.

We make sure to take injured and alive men to our basement, left to be tortured and get information out of. Later, I go into the kitchen to get a cup of water. To refresh my mind. To Process what I almost did back there at the warehouse. Mattia walks in the room, Just my luck! He stands next to me and snatches the cup of water from my mouth and drinks it. Then smirks at me. I looked into his eyes, and he looked back at mine. 

I cant believe I almost shot him. But I didn't...I missed on purpose. Why couldn't I shoot him? It almost felt like I didn't want to. 

At that moment, when I saw him,

I don't know, my heart just...

Skipped a beat.

••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 ~
𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐚~ 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥
𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐚~ 𝐆𝐨𝐫𝗴𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬