I Met You [Jenlisa]

Chapter 21

Remorseful , regret , guilty

Perfect words to described how jennie felt right now

She take a minutes sitting in her car , with her head resting against the steering wheel , her hands gripping tightly around it as her tears won't stop dripping from her eyes.remorse etched on her heart as the image of lisa's crying are still lingered in her mind

She came to lisa's place , but there's no one home.she called chaeyoung and asked if lisa was with her , but she's not there also.she don't think she's ready to face lisa after what she had done , but she can't just let this thing go without being fixed

"I'm sorry lisa.." she whisper in between her sobs , a thousand of guilt and regretted hit her on her chest.she even can't forgive herself.she swear the kissed between her and kai was a mistake , she don't even know what she was doing , and she does regretted it a lot

But it's too late to realize everything , she obviously know what her heart wants now , but only after the damage she had caused.

Why people only realize how much someone meant in their life when they lost them?

At the time lisa leave her house , her heart immediately choose to went to lisa instead of staying there with kai

For the past four years , she never experienced this feeling before.she never experienced the painful feelings that she felt right now.and now she just realize what do she really wants , the answer of the question that she keep asking to herself all this time.she love lisa , she have fall in love with her so deep that she's scared to lose her

It's not like she never knew about it before , she do aware of her feelings for lisa.but what should she say to herself?stupid?dense?

Only if she could realize it sooner , or not being too stupid , this thing won't happened.she don't love kai , she just missed the affection that he gave , he just a memories that she keep with her for a long time and when he came back , she thought she's still has feelings for him , but she's not.all the confused feelings she had before wasn't because she love him , but maybe just because of she thought she's still love him and afraid that the things won't be going well if she choose to be with lisa , and end up would broke her heart

But she's still did

A bunch of message she had sent to lisa , but not even a single reply she have got.even the calls went direct to the voice mail.she grit her teeth and take a deep breath , calming herself down.she wipe all the tears in her eyes and start driving again heading to the cafe.she know lisa won't be there , but maybe someone in there would know where she was.when she arrived she immediately get off from the car and went to the counter , her eyes fixed on the certain girl who seemed like trying to ignore her presence

"Hey" jennie control her voice by clearing her throat.the tall girl lift her head up and she look at jennie for a seconds before she answered.her eyes scanned every inch of jennie's face , she noticed a stain of tears on her cheek , and her puffy red eyes.it was so obvious that she just cried

"Yes?" Tzuyu replied , with a little harsh tone in her voice.just by seeing jennie's state , she knew really well what actually happened now and she can't help but to feel slightly angry at her

"Do you know where lisa is?" Jennie asked , hoping that the girl would know ,but tzuyu was hesitated

"No , she left earlier but until now she's still not yet back" tzuyu said and continue writing something on the small notebook.jennie release a disappointed sighed , and nodded slowly as she mouthed thankyou to her.

She don't know where else she should go to find her.she keep begging that nothing happened to lisa and hope that she was fine.the tears in her eyes has an urge to fall , but she held it back by biting her lips.she close her eyes for a seconds and slowly take out her phone.the message she have sent to lisa are still wasn't replied.she sigh and dial jisoo's number , and thankfully just for a few rangs she already pick up the call