Blank Space

Lover Boy

It took all my sanity to get back after my little chat with Day. Still holding my chest, I breathe deeply. I needed to calm myself down. Being high from an encounter like that was definitely not good for my fragile heart. He was giving me all these emotions. He could make me soar and fall at the same time.

Sex on a stick.

Back at my seat, I saw him. Making out with another girl. I'm really not sure if it was the same girl he had at the loo. Well, he could have anyone in this club. No one could resist him. Even if I didn't get to watch his scandal, if he asked for me I'd gladly be at his beck and call. Gay or not. He just woke something in me I never dare to question. Now, I looked like a miserable bloke. Yearning for his attention. Longing but not having. I would very much like to ride that tall glass of hot mess. See, the old me would never dare to think like that. I'm pretty confident with my straightness. The new me however beg to differ as I stared at that tall piece of eye candy - hard.

I was half sober and half drunk for now. I really need the Male Leads with me. I'm feeling so lonely. I wonder why no one was interested in me. I specifically dress to the nines. Showing a little man cleavage. Tight pants. Does it scream gay? Or maybe I'm kinda intimidating them. Well, if I could rank the Male Leads by visual, I'm definitely at the top. Oh Well, I'll go with first one. Nothing to do with my attractiveness which was obviously oozing out. Right?

Looking around, almost all the patrons came in groups. Even Day came with his squad. Four including Day. I don't want to count the ladies because I'm too drunk for that. They were kinda many. Too drunk to count.

They were quiet at their tables because all of them were happily snogging with their lady friends. Not much of talking around there.

The bands playing in the club set after set were into slow rock. I'm guessing they wanted to create an atmosphere where the people still could talk and unwind at the same time. If the club wasn't so high-end we could enjoy here together with my group. Well I'm almost down to my last shot. My allowance for the week would suffer if I stay a li'l bit longer. I guess I was not the only one thinking that as I saw Day's table getting themselves ready to bounce.

As much as I wanted to tail them, I'd rather not. I'd give them five minutes head start. An encounter with Day was enough for one night.

My heart....

As I saw them left in pairs, I'm kinda disappointed that I never did get it out of my system. I was hoping it would be with Day. If I wanted to test out the waters as they said. I wanted it to be with the man who made me question so many things. I'm still loyal to a fault. I didn't know if this was just a phase or maybe it was a Day-phase. I guess I would never get a chance to know. Sigh.

Times up.

I got up and tried to test out how drunk I was at that time. After ten steps, not bad Tine, you could still go home by yourself and sleep immediately because you're still drunk but not smashed kinda drunk.

The chilly wind outside the club did not make my hairs at the back stood up but rather the guy outside smoking while looking nonchalantly at me.

For a split second I wanted to go back.

My heart....

His piercing gaze. His sexy stance.

Blowing his smoke into my direction, he eyed me intriguingly.

"I don't do boyfriends. " What?

Dumbstruck.

The smoke of his cigarette lingered in the air. I could feel myself getting riled up by his statement. I would very much like to say. 'Boyfriend my ass. " But that also got stuck at the back of my tongue.

I was hoping that he would leave it at that but hoping was such a common word for me nowadays.

"You looked at me like I was your salvation." He continued while having another dragged of his cancer stick.

Well if making me go through this phase with just your video was what you meant, then maybe I am. I would very much like to say at the moment. I just couldn't. Too busy asking myself if this was really happening. Am I really that obvious?

Day just stood there waiting for me to come clean.

"Are you crazy? " I said. Tried to look angry or insulted. Anything just to get out of this mess.

"... " I saw his left eye brow raised. But still not talking.

"You just look familiar. " Like super familiar, sex scandal familiar and I'm one of your fans. Can we fuck?

I would never say the words after familiar. It could get me into another mess. Looking at him, I could tell that he was straight as an arrow. But could he blame me, he was so hot in the video.

Sex on a stick.

He walked towards me, every step made me nervous. I was like a distraught string of nerves. Waiting for his next move. Still not talking. Was this what criminals had to endure to prove their innocence? The silence, the knowing stare. It's really cracking my facade.

And cracked it did.

We were face to face. His soulless eyes. Looking into mine. My hoping eyes looked right back. He was really tall but not quite tall as me just a couple of inches shorter. And of all the things to start rambling about was the most stupid topic; his height. Come on, this was the safest topic. If I were to start rambling about his face. I might not be standing, but kneeling in front of him -worshiping his feet. Too dramatic? I know. So let's just stray from other topics and stick to his height.

Face to face, I could smell his manly scent. I'm getting dizzy and weak. Day have that effect on me.

"And who do I looked like?" He seemed interested.

"My next mistake?"

I'm cringing with the way I said it. There was always a point in our life that we wanted to take back what we said but it's too late so we tried to just accept the consequences.

I couldn't part with my cheeky self.

I went to the bar where I could I find this guy and decided to sleep with him, just to get it out of my system. At the last minute I was chickening out. I was not prepared for Day's extreme hotness in the flesh.

The universe now was helping me and I'm messing this all up with my indecisiveness. Grab him by the balls my inner self was cheering. Not literally but you know figuratively. This inner talk was not helping one bit.

"Were you flirting with me? " His sinister smile is like a cold embrace in November, send chills to my core.

"I... " Too much thoughts running through my mind. Too afraid to say the wrong things. Too afraid to mess things up.

"I'm really in no mood for your existential crisis. " He interrupted as he took the last drag of his cig before stomping it at the pavement like an insect. He is getting impatient.

I don't know what possessed me as I blurt out the next words. His mood or my panicky attack.

"Please be mine for tonight. "

He looked at me long and hard. Calculating. The seconds passing by making me itch to turn around and drag my non existent tail to wallow and weep at my dorm.

Day crossed the little distance we have. If that was possible. He looked at me straight in the eyes. Solemnly. Again. I couldn't stop the drumming of my heart, like I couldn't stop the scenes unfolding. He was so close that I'm getting dizzy with his mere presence.

And with just his sexy lips he replied.

"I thought you never asked. " So breathy and warm.

I shivered as I saw his cryptic smile.

Day will be the death of me.

My heart....

A/N:

I never planned to make it into chapters. But my muse came into play. Enjoy.