Dear Santa | winrina

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August 10th

Dear Kim Minjeong/Winter,

I've been thinking a lot about what to say for the past few days after receiving your letter and I only had the courage to write it now. I can't believe that you did all of those things for a child that you merely knew. I was stupid and selfish for not giving you a chance to explain. Even though you might not be able to read this letter anymore, I still want you to know about my real feelings.

I'm very proud of you for being so proud of your love for me. I focused on the wrong things that you did to me that I forgot all about the good ones. I shouldn't have let you go, I was already lucky to have you in my life. You tried so hard to save our relationship, but I wasted all of it. I really hate myself for not being able to express my feelings while you were here. I had a lot of chances to tell you how much you meant to me before, but I took them for granted. I failed to give importance to you and I wasn't able to return all the love that you gave me. I was very narrow-minded that I never thought of your feelings and how hurt you must have been too. If only I could turn back the time, I wouldn't be so selfish. I won't allow you to leave me like this and be in a lot of pain.

My Santa, Kim Minjeong, to the girl who has always made my wishes come true, I hope that you will still be able to grant my final wish next Christmas. It's just funny how the tables turned. I desperately wanted you to disappear before that I couldn't even wait for Christmas just to get rid of you, but now.. I can't wait for Christmas because I want my wish to be granted as soon as possible and that is to have you back.

So please if you're listening to me right now, Santa.. please bring Kim Minjeong back to me. Just her, how she was when I first met her and how she was when she left me. I want to treat her in the best way possible and not just someone that I want to get rid of everyday.

In the end, I guess I'm still the little girl who will always wish, write letters to Santa, and expect it to come true next Christmas.. because I know that someday, we will be able to meet again. And I promise you by that time, I'm already the girl who can express my feelings openly to you and make you feel everything that you deserve. But for now.. I guess there's really nothing that I can do than to wait for the right time. Farewell, My Santa.

Thank you for everything. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you again.

Sincerely,
Yoo Jimin/Karina