I begin walking to my mom's car. Still holding John, I tell "Jishwa"(bruh) that I will need to hang up any minute.
I open the door to the car. I greet my mother, and I am still holding onto John.
I go to show her my new son. She then tells me, "Get rid of it, I don't want it in the car."
I begin to try and convince her otherwise but she is persistent. She doesn't give in.
I then have to face a grueling task, saying goodbye.
I hold open the car door and I begin to say goodbye.
"I'll miss you."
"I love you"
"I'm sorry"
I then drop John. He doesn't fall onto the cement like I had hoped. He falls onto the black pavement the car is resting on. I freak out, and I reach to pick him up. While I'm reaching for John, my mom begins to drive.
"Is she insane?" I wondered. She just began to drive while I still had the door open. She doesn't stop so I just give in and close the door. I then tell Jishwa I will call them back when I get home.
I have not seen John ever since. The fact that we may have been the ones to end his beautiful life just tears me to shreds. I would do anything to go back and change that moment. I miss him more than anything in the world and I mourn him every day I walk this earth.
John,
I love you
