Three Empty Words

Chapter 1

Ember's PoV

"Nagsawa na ako" those fucking words kept stabbing me! And yes! My fucking ex-boyfriend really said that!

"Ganon ganon nalang yun?" i asked with teary eyes. This is bullshit!

"I'm sorry, I love you but my love for you isn't enough to make me stay..." he said, frustrated?

"What?! All these years? You didn't love me?! We are together for 3 fucking years and now?! You're saying that your love for me isn't enough?! Why?!" i shouted, my heart was ripped off!

"I'm sorry, nagsawa ako—"

I slapped him really hard.

"Nagsawa ka?! How could you?! Kung nag sawa ka na pala you should've just broke up with me than cheating on me! For 3 years i change my life for this relationship! My dark life became colorful because of you and now, you cheated on me!" paulit ulit kong hinampas ang dibdib nya sa sobrang galit ko.

"I'm sorry! But, believe me! I loved you for the past 3 years! But, i found someone else who can fulfill your duties, who can fulfill my needs that you can't give. I'm sorry"

I slapped him again. I can't believe what he just said! Fulfill my own duties? What?! In bed?! Huh?!

My lips parted.

"What?! Do you really loved me?! Because if you do?! Hindi mo ako sasaktan ng ganito!" i shouted.

"I'm sorry Ember... I love my girlfriend. I love her so much..." nakayukong sinabi nya.

I slapped him once again. He loves her new girlfriend?! What about me?! Ang sakit! Ang sakit sakit!

"What about me?" mahinang tanong ko, naghihina na ako sa mga naririnig ko mula sa lalaking pinaka mamahal ko. I don't know what to do!

"There's no 'you' in my life. I'm sorry" sinabi nya at walang pasabing tinalikuran ako pero nagsalita pa ako.

"So... This is goodbye?" i asked. My tears didn't stop, it's like a waterfall, hindi nauubusan ng tubig.

He looked back and smile.

"Yes... I think, this is goodbye. Thank you for those memories we shared and Thank you for loving me even if i don't..." sinabi nya habang tumutulo ang mga luha at agad na tumalikod at sumakay sa kotse nya at pinatakbo papalayo. Papalayo saakin...

Napasandal ako sa kotse ko at hindi na alam ang gagawin kaya mas pinili ko nalang umiyak. Ang sakit sakit. Ang sikip sa dibdib, hindi ako makahinga ng maayos sa sobrang sakit at galit na nararamdaman ko. Mas lalong nadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing naiisip ko ang sinabi niyang hindi nya ako minahal. Anong ibig sabihin ng pagsasama namin ng 3 years kung hindi nya ako minahal? Joke lang ba ang lahat? Fuck!

"AHHHHHH!!?!?!?!!" sigaw ako ng sigaw baka sakaling mabawasan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Napatingin ako sa paligid pero ako lang ang tao. I want someone who can stay beside me. I want someone to talk right now. Pero wala! Lahat sila iniwan ako! All of them left me hanging! They left because they give up! They give up because they didn't want me!

Alam mo yung feeling na ayaw na sayo ng mundo? Yung feeling na lahat ng taong mahal mo ay ayaw sayo? Yung feeling na iwan ka lang ng lahat basta huwag lang ang taong mahal mo? Yung feeling na pati parents mo iniwan ka? Yung ka isa isang taong pinagkatiwalaan, pinahalagahan, at minahal ay iniwan lang din ako. Ang sakit! Wala ng natira saakin. Iniwan na ako ng boyfriend ko dahil nagsawa sya saakin? Oh fuck! Lahat ng tao sa buhay ko ay nag sasawa na sakin. I don't understand why they're leaving me.