"How are you doing?" Shailene asks. She told me she hasn't been at school either but she didn't take Isabelle's death as hard as I have. We sit on the bench at the park after school. Everyone at school gave me sympathetic looks and hugs. I wasn't the only one getting them though, the whole group was. Kyle hasn't even made an appearance at school yet. I think I might go and see how he is. I know he won't be much better than I am right now but it's nice to actually have someone to talk to about this shit, someone who is going through it too. Austin was right about something; we can't keep everything bottle things up because eventually the bottle it is in will break and it will leave a hurtful mess in its wake.
As I'm contemplating whether or not to go see Kyle, Shai keeps talking to me. When she notices I haven't heard a word she has been saying she nudges me, "Quinn?"
"Hmmm...?" I look towards her and she has a worried look on her face. Her eyebrows are bounched together and her lips are in a slight frown.
"What's on your mind?" She asks.
"It's just...I haven't seen Kyle for a while and I think I need to go see him. It's not good to stay cooped up and not speak about any of this." I look down at my hands.
"Come on I'll give you a ride there." She says, standing up and heading to her car. I follow behind her and hop into the passenger side of the car before she drives down to Kyle's.
I knock on his door and within seconds Kylie's mum opens the door. "Quinn? Come in." She opens the door for me to enter the house. "Kyle's in his room." She says before leaving me to find Kyle. I nod and make my way down the hall to his room. The door was slightly ajar and I push it to peek head through, to only find a mess and in the middle of that mess is Kyle. Wide, red rimmed eyes, his hair mimics a birds nest and his clothes are filthy, not to mention the room stinks.
"Kyle?" I ask. He turns to face me. He doesn't look too good. I make my way over and sit beside him when he doesn't say anything.
"I never got to say goodbye. I never even got to tell her that..." He pauses as he cries into my shoulder "...that I love her. She hasn't heard that since we has a fight. We hardly spoke since then." I pat his back and place my chon on top of his head.
"I know you loved her. She knew that before she...died. She loved you too, you know. She always did." At this point I'm crying. I can't handle the pain this has given me. "The funeral is on Saturday. Please try and make it. It would be what Isabelle would have wanted."
He nods before I go to stand up, but he pulls my hand. "Stay. Please." I look into his eyes and see hurt and pain. I slowly nod my head before sitting back down and hug him.
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Friday comes within no time. The day before the funeral of my best friend. I don't really want to go to school but I can't exactly skip it when I went to school through the whole week. Speaking if school and going the whole week, I hadn't seen Luke there at all. Well I saw him in the corridor for a second the other day but he left as soon as he saw me.
It hurts to think he doesn't care about me the way I thought he did. Yet he may have a good reason for all this.
I pull my bag over my shoulder and head out the door.
Reaching school I see Shailene and Jay standing out the front of the school like normal, although their faces are emotionless. They aren't talking, they aren't looking at anything but their own hands.
I open the door of my car and walk up to them. They look up and within seconds I'm in Shai's arms crying, I can't explain the pain, hurt and lost I feel right now.
The bell rings, breaking up the hug. "Come on. Let's get today over with." Shai says grabbing my arm and pulling me to class.
We reach English and sit down in the usual seat. Today we have to write an essay on how change has impacted us. No surprise that I am writing about when Isabelle died and how it has impacted me.
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Oh my god, I'm so sorry for the short chapter. It was a filler so I could expand the book. It is unfortunately coming to an end. Only a few more chapters then maybe an epilogue.
But don't worry I am going to write another book (not sure if it a fanfic thou)
If you want an epilogue please comment what you want to see and if you want a bonus chapter comment what you want me to write about, parts that are in the book that no one has seen before eg, Isabelle and Kyle breakup or Isabelle cutting etc
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Fanfiction"I have never been more hurt in my life." Emma Taylor is an ordinary 17 year old high school student. She receives perfect grades and has a perfect boyfriend. Her life IS perfect. Well she thought it was anyway. Join Emma on her adventure to fin...
