Acotar & Tog Oneshots

Cassian

Prompt: Cassian is so caught up in paying attention to Nesta he misses something important which leads you to get fed up and let your anger boil over.

You tried not to be as visibly angry as you were right now but it was hard and you were failing.

Your mate spent the week pestering Nesta into joining him on his trip to the war-camp and you regrettably didn't say anything.

You didn't even mention anything when she finally agreed and Cassian made plans to leave for a week.

You weren't the jealous type but the idea of Cassian with Nesta in the mountains made you nervous.

He was putting all of his time into trying to 'fix' her and it's like he forgot you existed, it was moments like these that made you question if you two were actually mates.

Maybe he did have feelings for her and you were just there to warm his bed, that was a huge possibility since you mostly just saw him when he was just horny.

But staying up all night with your back to the rest of your empty bed made you come to a conclusion.

You would take a break or whatever you wanted to call it.

A day before his trip to the mountains you told him to meet you at your shared apartment unaware that
it was obvious to him already that you were upset.

Hearing the sound of the front door open made you stiffen on your spot at the end of the bed but you just watched your hands waiting for the bedroom door to open.

The sound of his heavy footsteps on the floor greeted you and it wasn't long until he opened the bedroom door.

Watching you with curious eyes he felt the wave of anxiety pulse through you and he decided to stay in the doorway rather than make it worse.

Looking at him briefly you couldn't bring yourself to hold eye contact with his worried eyes.

"Cassian. .  . I think we should take a break" your nervous tick showed as you fumbled with you hands unsure of what else to say.

"A break"?

He questioned eyebrows furrowed in confusion and you nodded.

"I think that it will-" you sighed cutting yourself off before continuing "Cassian this isn't working at least
not for me.

I don't want to be on the sidelines any- "what did I do" he questioned his posture now just as stiff as yours.

"Your never here and when you are here its only to fuck or complain about Nesta".

"Is this about Nesta, Y/N I don't want Nesta I want- I need you more than anyone else"! His voice raises while you watched the emotions flare in his eyes.

"Cassian I just think you need to figure things out your pinning after her whether you realize it or not it's frustrating"!

"I just want to- Help her! What Cassian help her into your fucking bed. Do even realize what last week was or were you too busy with Nesta"!

You weren't trying to yell but being calm was too hard to do right now especially when he looked at you with his jaw clenched unsure of what to say.

"My birthday Cassian you forgot my birthday because you were too busy with another woman who you're now about to go to fucking camp with for a week. Do you know how fucked up that is"!

"I'm- please leave" you looked down at your hands again ignoring your trembling hands "I'll see you after your trip".

You knew that was a lie but you just needed him to leave without arguing anymore.

Closing your now watering eyes you refused to listen or move until you heard his footsteps retreat and the front door slam shut.

Another long night you would spend awake and in tears.

Even though Cassian no longer wanted to go to the mountains he still went for Nesta's sake since she needed the change of environment. 

But he spent the entire trip regretting not saying more and trying to plan out how he could get you to forgive him.

Did you really mean what you said?

Did you really want to end things?

You were his mate you needed him more than anyone else and yet he fucked it up so badly that you were going to leave him.

Three days before Cassian's trip was over and he couldn't help the anxious feeling that was slowly taking over his body.

His instincts told him something was wrong tout he just chopped it up to getting into and argument with his mate and leaving angry which the latter he had never done before.

The next morning the woke up more anxious, angry, and needy.

He wanted to apologize he would even get on his knees and beg if it meant that the aching feeling in his chest would disappear.

The urge to be territorial burned through his veins, the instinctual urge to keep you in his bed for as long as he could help.

To make sure you stayed with him.

At some point he broke and in a haze he left camp wanting his mate and needing you close.

It didn't take him nearly as long to get back then it took to leave since he could fly the entire way without responsibility over anyone else holding him back.

He hadn't actually come up with what he was going to say yet and he only realized that when he got to the apartment door.

He still followed through with knocking but after it was clear you weren't going to open the door he used his keys to do so.

When he opened the door he finally understood the ache he felt, it was because you left.

Your things were gone making the apartment look bare and only your smell lingered, He's be lying if he said he didn't trash the place in anger.

Not directed at you though instead directed at himself and his own stupidity.

After causing the problem he still left when he definitely should not have.

He gave you time like Rhysand and Azriel told him to do but you were mated the bond was sealed he could only wait for so long.

Two weeks.

He held out for two weeks before he showed up at your door in Dawn, you didn't even get an explanation as to how he found you.

Seeing him proved hard to do but you still let him in, poured two drinks, and waited for him to explain.

"I'm sorry I forgot your birthday".

You let out a sight if that was all he understood from your argument- "and I'm also sorry that I neglected you I should have known better.

I guess I just got obsessed with the idea that I could help someone and change their way of thinking even though she didn't want help.

I took your care for granted I failed as a mate to notice you were upset and I'll try no matter what it takes starting now to get in your good graces again".

Setting down your glass you gave a small smile "I just want you to try".