Its 3 am again the thoughts are running into my head but it feels different now it used to me though about you now I'm focused on the things that didn't make any sense I'm starting to guess that growing up was never meant to be easy. I got used to doing everything sideways, I all I cared about was how others felt all I knew to do was express my emotions in different ways, the feelings were always around me but now what's lost is lost, It's time to just let go cause it's the part of you that will make you strong embrace your im, I'm no longer gonna fight back what I've become, there are scars in almost every inch of me these bruises may not be visible but trust me I'm filled with them and I don't know if I can take the pain anymore but I wouldn't change if I could restart, every one of these scars has it's own story, a lesson that was meant to be learned all this time I've been going way too hard on myself guess that's the reason that I'm feeling like hell these days. these feelings are starting to dim I'm not sure if I can feel anymore, I have always gone down a road that only got me nowhere, I've seen every corner, every inch of this place, being all alone here it's really starting to get me thinking maybe overthinking whatever it is these feelings are starting hold no meaning to me, I don't know what's on the other side but is it really worth all the hurting?! I feel I can't breathe.. the skies becoming toxic. Polluted with all my hopes I thought they died along with my sense of time and I'm definitely not alright I feel trapped in my mind like
I couldn't escape even if I tried to. it feels like I'm too late, too weak and too kind my heart is on fire and I'm burning alive so I guess I'm not fine. I wish I could get all these thoughts away, I'm sure it's not safe for me to be in this headspace anymore lost in these thoughts you told me to have faith in my self and you watched me as I sunk in my hopes, I can't forgive anyone anymore I feel completely broken and starting to get paranoid I need to run from this. Once upon a time, I used to hold you and all these feelings so close now the only thing I'm holding is a broken soul so I don't feel anymore I don't love I don't care let the world burn ill make sure to keep the pain away from me, there's no more losing your self it's just me and my self now.
