Young & Pregnant

4

" She's going to be fine. She just had a panic attack but she needs to be on bed rest for awhile for the safety of her & the unborn." I heard someone say sounds like a doctor.

But did I hear her correctly. Did she just say unborn ?? I'm pregnant ? With a child ? No this can't be happening.

" She's pregnant ? " I heard both of my parents ask at the same time.

" Yes only 1 month though. She needs to start her appointments very soon definitely since this panic attack. It can very much so effect the baby. "

I forced my eyes open to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I mean I've always wanted to be with child but not NOW !! I barely can take care of myself how can I take care of another human.

" Okay thank you Doctor Lawrence." My mother said.

I tried to quickly close my eyes but they been seen them open.

" Little girl so you been running round being fast now you pregnant !! I can't believe you Asya. I expected so much more from you. How do you think that gonna make us look ?? Better yet your father !! No better yet your self you dance at church what you think their gonna say about you ABOUT US !!"

" You know what believe it because this baby not going no where. And you know what I'm so sick of this family. Y'all bring more stress on me than anything else. You're sitting here thinking about how y'all gonna look but I have to carry this child !! I have to get all the stares from the people not you so for you to sit here & call me out like I'm some HOE !! Oh no you can leave right now. And for you to be my mother you should be by my side wrong or right."

After I told my mother off she just stormed off with my father right behind her. I couldn't believe this is happening to me. I'm a mother at fifth teen years old. This wasn't my plan in life.

I checked my phone & I didn't have no nothing from Marcus it's cool. I really don't need him in my life right now. l still wanna kill him for getting the biggest thot in America pregnant.

While I'm at this hospital imma get check before I'm released because I know that girl has something.

* 1 Hour Later *

" Ms. Locs you are diagnosed HIV positive. I'm so sorry but you can start your treatments after your pregnancy but for now you can take one to prevent it to travel to your child."

When those left his words I didn't even know what to do. I couldn't cry bc I laid on my back & took it all in. I can't blame nobody but me.

" When will I be able to be released ?? "

" Actually in a couple of hours so who will sign your release forms ?"

" Can you give me some time & I'll let you know. This is just a lot in one day."

" Okay & I'm really sorry & anything & I mean anything you need please let me know. I know how it feels to be in this same position babygirl."

I nodded & laid back on the hospital bed pillow & cried. I cried for me, Marcus, Tasha, my unborn, my parents, even the doctor. Idk why I just did. This is too much in one day. I'm a 15 year old mother that's HIV positive because my boyfriend the one I trusted to take my virginity was sneaking around on me & got another girl pregnant that had the disease. Wow doesn't that sound perfect.