Blood Slaves (The Frey, #2)

12. Can I

BLOOD SLAVES

CHAPTER 12 - CAN I?

Right after the call, Andi just sat on the bed and spaced out. Nakatulala na lamang siya sa kawalan. She didn't stop thinking. If only she could, matagal na niyang ginawa. Even in her dreams, her brain won't stop working. She wished na sana sa may break din ang mga tao. She wished she could take a break whenever she wanted to. Gusto niya lang mabuhay nang wala ng pangamba, iniisip, or pinoproblema. But if that happened, life would be dull.

So yeah, maybe even after death, she would still think. Natawa siya nang mahina sa kanyang iniisip. Only if there was a time that she could feel at peace, she would risk everything just to get that.

So, the whole day, Andi sat there. Nakatulala sa kawalan. Still thinking while waiting for him.

It was already night when Andi decided to take a bath. Ang tagal niya sa banyo dahil nakatulala na naman s'ya. Habit na siguro? Back when she was a blood slave, this was the only thing that she could do. Ang tumulala sa kawalan. Dreaming and hoping...

Right after she took a bath ay nagpunas siya ng katawan at nagbihis. Muli ay naupo siya sa kama at tumulala.

She again felt so alone. She felt everything was so unfair. Pakiramdam niya ay pasan-pasan na naman niya ang mundo. She hated this. She fucking hated it. She wanted a break. Stop muna. Kahit minuto lang. O kahit segundo lang.

She was so tired thinking of things that happened in the past and will happen in the future. She was already sick of thinking that she could never be safe, that there were vampires who were after her. She couldn't stop thinking about Alexander. Everything... everything was too much at kaunting-kaunti na lang ay sasabog na s'ya.

She sighed. She could only sigh. Ang sakit sa ulo. Sobrang sakit sa ulo. Napapikit na lamang ng mariin si Andi. Huminga siya ng malalim.

Maybe she should just kill herself...

Maybe if she was dead already, everything would just stop.

Maybe she could finally take a break...

Her mind was already clouded with dark thoughts when she heard the door opened. Tumingin siya roon at tiningnan ang taong pumasok.

Everything stopped the moment she saw him. 'Yong kaninang pag-iisip niya ng kung ano-ano ay biglang nawala. Tears fell down from her eyes. Finally, finally. He was here.

Madali siyang tumayo at tumakbo patungo kay Alexander. Agad niya itong yinakap ng mahigpit. The man welcomed her with open arms and hugged her back. Ramdam na ramdam niya ang mahigit nitong pagyakap. Sinuksok niya ang kanyang mukha sa leeg ng binata at mas lalong hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap sa kanya.

He slowly patted her back. They stood there, hugging each other, until she finally calmed down. Binuhat siya ng binata at dinala sa kama. Inupo niya si Andi doon at akmang lalayo na but Andi didn't bulge. She continued hugging him tightly. She didn't want to let go. Alexander again patted her back. Hindi umimik ang binata at hinintay niya lamang na kumalma ang dalaga.

After a few minutes, pinakawalan din sa wakas ni Andi ang binata.

"Have you calmed down?"

Tumango si Andi ngunit nakayuko pa rin ito. Sumilip si Alexander sa dalaga at hinawakan ang baba nito. Inangat niya ang ulo ni Andi upang makita ng maayos ang mukha ng dalaga. Pinunasan niya ang pisngi nitong basang-basa ng luha. Pati na rin ang gilid ng mata nito.

"What were you thinking?" tanong ni Alexander sa kanya.

"Lahat... Lahat..."

"Look at me."