haikyuu x reader

❥Tanaka Ryunosuke

❥title: I loved you.
❥story: angst
❥warnings: swearing

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You stood there, clenching your fist as you look down on the ground, shutting your eyes tightly so that the tears that were threathing to fall would just disappear.

Loving someone who loves someone else hurts so damn much, out of everyone you could admire, you chose someone who's already got a person in mind.

Tanaka Ryunosuke, the second year who was head over heels for the other manager, Kiyoko Shimizu.

She's a third year, extremely beautiful, flawless skin, smart, kind, thoughtful—the list goes on an on, it felt like it never ended.

She's popular, not only by her breath taking looks but of course her quiet, timid and calm personality. Her touch would make you crazy.

You on the other hand is the opposite. Not popular, just the normal reputation, you weren't that smart and you weren't even interested in volleyball.

The reason you just joined in the first place is because of him.

But you're just slowly torturing yourself, seeing him flirt and blush around the beautiful 3rd year just made you feel like a piece of shit.

You felt like a slave next to her, her as the goddess and you as a nobody.

You admit, you couldn't blame Tanaka for falling for her, she was perfect after all. If Tanaka wasn't here, you've probably already had a crush on the female manager.

"Y/n-San." you gasped as a hand was placed on your shoulder, looking up you see Shimizu with a concerned expression.

"You're crying.." She mutters, pulling out her handkerchief as she gently wipes away your tears.

"Oh-! Please don't tell me they saw.." you say, wiping the small tears that were suddenly dripping and falling down on your cheeks.

She shot you a worried yet innocent smile, "No, I blocked their view with my figure." you thanked ber quietly, smiling.

"Thank you Kiyoko-Senpai.." you muttered as she sighs a bit, "Listen, if you're having a hard time. Don't be afraid to tell me, I'm your friend, okay?"

You smiled a bit wider, but it dropped since you couldn't hold in the fake smile. Just looking at her made you feel so upset.

She noticed this and frowned, "You're upset because of me isn't it?"

Crap.

"No..I'm not upset.." you lied, she knew better than that. "But I'm one of the reasons." you bit your lower lip, looking at the ground to avoid her eyes.

"Y/n-San, if I made you upset I apologise.. I didn't mean to."

"Its not you, its me." you reply, cursing quietly when you felt the tears practically begging to get out.

"Hm?" she asks, not getting a hint of what you were saying. "I was too stupid enough to fall for someone who deserves a goddess." you paused to look af her with teary eyes.

"He deserves you." you walked away but she held your wrist and pulled you into a deep hug.

"It's Tanaka, I know.. I know." the team didn't bother to look, all of them were to busy practising anyways, even the coach didn't notice.

"But..how?"

"I just do, if it makes you feel better. I don't like him back, you know? And I'll tell him to stop." She smiled as she noticed you calmed down in her arms.