Just Like a Memory | Yuwin ✔️

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I felt light-headed as I tried to open my eyes. Everything was blurry and my head still ached. I slowly opened my eyes and looked around to see where I was. I eventually became aware of the fact that I was now at the hotel. How I got here, I don't have a clue.

I tried to sit up from the bed I was lying in, but every inch of my body screamed out in pain so I soon gave up and laid back down.

While I was lying there, I thought about what had been crashing around my mind before I woke up. It was him. But I know him as more than 'him". Yuta was the love of my life. We had been through so much together. I missed him. Did I really see him on the beach or was my mind just playing tricks on me?

I spent a few minutes just lying there, thinking everything through. Suddenly, I didn't feel quite as empty. For the first time in a while, I felt whole. I thought through every broken memory as they all became whole. My past was no longer a blur. And he was there for all of it. I hadn't noticed the tears that were rolling down my cheeks until a voice spoke up.

"You're awake. Thank god. Wait, your crying. Are you okay?" Taeil asked as he came to stand by the side of the bed. He assisted me in sitting up against the headboard.

"I-is he really h-here?" I asked as I slowly moved my body again, trying to work through the ache.

"Who?" Taeil asked. I wasn't sure whether he was being genuine or if he was just doing the same as before.

"Yuta" I responded. He looked shocked for a second before realising that that was possibly why I was crying. He bit his lower lip and slowly nodded.

I let out a breath that I hadn't noticed I was holding. He was here. It wasn't all just my imagination.

"Where?" I asked, a little more rushed.

"In Taeyong's room with the others. I can go-" Taeil was cut off when I climbed out of the bed and started walking out of the room. He followed close behind to make sure that I was okay.

I walked straight to Taeyong's room. Not even knocking on the door before walking in. As soon as the door swung open, my heart started going crazy and my legs began to feel weak.

There he was. Sat next to Taeyong on the bed. Looking over at me. I could see him biting his bottom lip, unsure of what to do. I quickly ran over to him, wrapping my arms around him tightly. I could tell that he was wary at first, but as soon as I spoke,

"I missed you so much, Yuta" he was quick to return the hug. He stood up, lifting me with him as he spun around, burying his face into my collar. God, did I miss this feeling. The feeling I had ignored for the past year. The feeling of him by my side.

Once he had out me down, I looked up at him with a faint smile.

"We need to talk," I said sadly, knowing that I had to explain myself. He briefly looked back at Taeyong who nodded, before turning and nodding to me. I lead him back into my room before sitting on the bed with him beside me.

I was trying to comprehend something to say but instead, tears started to tumble down my cheeks as I began to speak.

"I'm so sorry. I really am. I broke our last promise because I was in pain and it just caused even more pain. I should have found another way to cope but I was stupid and it just really hurt when you left me after so long and I'm sorry" I cried out. He was quick to pull me into a hug, his hand calmingly stroking my hair.

"It's not your fault, okay? I missed you too. It wasn't fair of me to just leave you and to make empty promises. I knew this wasn't going to be easy so I lied to myself and you to try and make things easier. But I missed you. Even if you didn't, I missed you. And I'm glad you remember me again" he smiled weakly, cupping my cheek in his hand as he looked down at me.

"I'm glad I remember you too. It hurt just as much to forget you as it did to remember. I should have just waited out the pain instead of making it worse" I spoke quietly, thinking about how differently this could have gone.

"Do you think maybe... You could give me a second chance?" Yuta asked, raising his eyebrows innocently.

"You never ruined your first. I should be the one asking for a second chance" I smiled shyly.

"But then I could say the same to you. How about we agree to try again? I really did miss you. I need you in my life, more than anything" he smiled. I smiled back up at him and nodded. He slowly leaned in, his eyes focusing on my lips until he glanced back up to my eyes. I nodded slightly and that was all the permission he needed to close the gap.

My lips pressed against his. A feeling I hadn't realised I longed for so dearly. We both pulled away before it could advance to anything more than a longing kiss.

We both sat there for a few seconds, recollecting out thoughts. I was the first to speak up after the silence.

"I'm hungry. Let's go eat" I smiled, taking his hand and leading him to the restaurant downstairs where the others were already heading as we left.

The rest of the evening felt normal. Like this is how it was always meant to be. We all caught up with Yuta and Taeyong and Taeil took their time to explain to me why they did what they did and everyone took their turn in apologising. I obviously accepted them all straight away, understanding that they were just trying to help.

After dinner, I was able to persuade Yuta to stay the night in the hotel, sharing a bed with me. It wasn't as awkward as I was expecting it to be. In fact, it was one of the most natural feelings I've had in a long time.

For the next few days, we spent every second together. He showed me around the city and took me shopping. He even took the whole group to a theme park that was nearby.

On the Monday, he came to the concert, though he had to wear a mask and hat and try to keep a low profile since the fans were still aware of his existence.

It felt nice to have him back in my life. And right here, by my side. It was perfect. It felt more amazing than the flashes of memories that had been hitting me. It was real. He was really here. He was all I needed.

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