The Sorrow of Regrets ( JenLisa )

Chapter 28

Jennie's POV

Continue of the Flashback

We were kissing under the sunset, while i was kissing him I feel my heart beat so fast. After our kiss "Woah!" He said and he smile to me and he hug me. "Nini let's dance" he said "But we don't have any music." I said to him "That is not a problem anymore since i can sing" he said. He stand up and he led his arm to me "Can i have this dance?" He ask that it cause me to smile to him back "My pleasure" i said to him and we dance.

<<<Please play We and Us>>>

(((Author: I'm already tired of writing the lyrics of the song so just imagine that Liam are singing for Jennie.)))

While we're dancing under the moonlight, "I will never forget this day again Nini because  I get a chance to dance with you again." He said that it cause me to cry "Liam please fight for me." He said and he nod and wipe my tears and he hug me tightly like there is no tomorrow. "Jen always remember that i will always be there for you no matter what. I maybe here or not just look at the most brightest star and that was me who always watching you from afar." He said "Liam you promise me." I said sobbing "Yes I promise no matter what, thank you Jen for everything, for every single day that you wasted just for me." He said "Shh... It's not a waste Liam, I was thank full that I used to be in your side every day even it was a torture for me to see you suffering." I said to him and he cry too. He pulled our hug and i wipe his tears "Thank you Jen, I promise that no matter what i will always go back to you." He said then he kissed me in my forehead then to my lips.

After that night we go back to the hospital and we sleep together.

I didn't know that this will be our last night and last moment that we will share to each other.

After his surgery the doctor get out if his room and said that he didn't make it, that his tumor was really bad that it cause him to his death he really fought but badly he didn't make it.

I was crying so hard just to lessen the pain, but every time that i cry the more it hurts. I rush to his hospital bed and there i saw him lying without life. I cry and cry to him.

"Liam you promise me that you will fight but you did, I guess you're really tired now." I said to him "Wherever you are Liam i will always love you no matter what, sadly you didn't hear me saying this to you." I said looking at his dead body.

I go back in our house. I look at the garden area when I remember our moments when he's watering the plants and I took the water gun and I fired it to him that it cause him to fight back and we play all around.

I went inside the house and i look at the living room where there's a lot of our memories, when we were playing uno and he win and after that we dance that was the most memorable moment for the both of us.

I go to his room because I really miss him. I go to his bed and i hug his pillow and smell his perfume.

While i was lying on his bed I feel something hard and I look where is it, and when i found it I saw a notebook. I think this is his notebook, because of curiosity I open the first page and I read it. "My Love" I read. So this is all about his love life? Jealous is the one that I felt when I read the first page, but soon vanish when I read the second page.

January 1, 2019

           I'm  so nervous this day because I'm going confess My feelings to her, to My best friend . I was supposed to say it but my tongue refused to do it and my body froze when I saw her with her soon to be boyfriend or suitor standing in front of there gate. And this day I decided that...

I'm going to give up this feelings when I saw her smiling widely to him, I will give up this for her maybe just maybe she's really not for me.

I cry on what's on the second page. Now I know why he doesn't want to have any relationship. Because I'm the one he wants to be His someday. Sadly he didn't tell it.

March 3, 2019

           This is the most bad day for me.  Because I heard the most painful news that, SHE'S ALREADY IN A RELATIONSHIP.

I thought I already moved on, but the truth is no. I didn't. And the most painful part is she's the one who said the news.

I thought that this is just the painful one but NO! I just discovered that I have brain tumor and the most hurtful is, it can't cure, they can't find anything to cure this damn brain tumor.

"I'm sorry Liam for being a selfish friend to you I didn't notice that you're hurting because of me."

March 27, 2019

            I thought that this day will be my greatest day but no.

Some people says that many people dies because of the thoughts.

And I'm really dead no I'm just kidding.

This day is my birthday so I thought that I can be with her all day, but no, the reality heats me that she can't be with me because she's busy. Busy with her MAN you know what i mean.

[INSERT HE LAUGH BITTERLY WHILE WRITING THIS TO HIS DIARY]

I really thought that I've already moved in from her but no. It's still no, because in just one touch of hers, i feel like i want her, i want her presence,i want her smile, i want her gummy smile, that i just want, that i am the one who makes her laugh and smile, but no. There's already someone who make her laugh and smile and that was her boyfriend.

"I'm sorry again Liam because I forgot your birthday."