I want to be near you sometimes. As much as I love you,
I wish that I could love you better, that he could love you better,
That you could love you better.
Its not about being bitter,
though I am, and it is
A taste of chicory coffee dark and thick as car oil
Soiled.
And you can't spit it out, the taste lingers aroun,
And just like coffee, I'm addicted, taking a new sip every morning,
Remembering his face, when he looked at you with a curled lip and recalling
Your face,
pretending not to know.
And I resented you both.
I took an oath,
Never to blindly bind myself brainless and loveless,
Now I'm unwound,
Trying desperately to learn how to knit,
Because everything is in tatters.
-Tori
