Closing the Books

Chapter 11

I didn't tell Aiden about my midterm grade that night. I mean should I even tell him?

Parang wala naman akong makitang reason para sabihin sa kanya kasi it's my personal problem naman.

"Here's dinner" umupo siya sa harap ko at nangalumbaba habang nakatingin sa akin. Nawala tuloy ako sa iniisip ko at tinignan siya.

Tinaas ko ang kilay ko kasi ang lawak ng ngiti niya

"Bakit?"

"Nothing, I just really missed you"

I bit my lip to stop myself from smiling,forgetting my dilemma just a while ago, and just looked away "Kumain nalang nga tayo"

He chuckled but did exactly what I said.

"So what's keeping you busy these days?" He asked in the middle of our dinner

I almost stopped but then I proceeded on pretending like nothing's wrong.

Now that he asked me that, naalala ko yung iniisip ko nanaman kanina. Tinanong niya na ako so dapat ko siyang sagutin pero..

I don't know how to tell him that I failed one of my majors

I don't know how to tell him because I don't wanna tell him

"Same old, pero mas grabe kasi graduating na" I deflected, well it's not a lie

"Kaya pala halos hindi na tayo magkita" natawa ako kasi ngumuso siya. Nagtatampo talaga na parang bata lang

Yeah, it's better na yun yung sinabi ko kaysa naman magbago ang mood namin ngayong gabi.

"Alam ko rin namang marami kang ginagawa kaya wag kang maarte jan" I said

Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko "I was also thinking about a lot of things in the past few days"

Tumaas ang kilay ko at tumingin sa kaya. I was waiting for him to tell me about the offer but he just shrugged

"But it's okay now because I finally got to see you" he gave me that charming smile again so I just smirked and shook my head

I allowed myself to be with him that night but then I started thinking that maybe I really was distracted?

Because the whole time that we were together, although he let me be and let me reviewed, I still can't help it but to look at him

It's not his fault because he's not even doing anything to distract me. Nag-aaral lang din naman siya. Ako lang naman yung hindi makafocus sa aming dalawa

Siguro kasi hindi naman talaga ako palaaral kaya madali akong madistract pero wala talaga akong naintindihan sa inaaral ko habang magkasama kami.

"Uwi na ako" paalam ko sa kanya pagkatapos ng ilang oras

I give up. I already made my peace na hindi ako makakaaral nang mabuti kapag magkasama kami kasi parang mas gusto ko nalang siyang tignan at makipag-ngitian sa kanya.

I can't afford that right now.

"Hatid na kita" he offered and stood up but I just shook my head

"Kaya ko na, Aiden. Wag ka na mag-abala" halata sa expression niya na ayaw niya sa sagot ko, nakonsensya tuloy ako dahil sa itsura niya dahil baka akalain niya nanaman na may nagawa siyang masama kahit wala naman.

I offered him a small smile to assure him that nothing's wrong before leaving his condo

Habang nagdadrive iniisip ko kung anong gagawin ko.

I like Aiden, I know that.

He made me somehow forget all my troubles tonight because being with him just does that. He makes me feel light and relaxed