ONESELF (Completed) ✅

XV

        Our night is romantic.

      Pleasure and nothing else.

  The heat all over the place.

I can feel him in mine and I think he feel me too.

I moaned his name for several minutes and I don't know what to do anymore to my mouth whether to shut up or put some duct tape on my mouth.

I remember he is drunk while we're doing a sex inside my apartment while me I'm on the right mindset it's look like I'm a desperate woman wanting a sex from him.

I'm so tired of what happened between us pero hindi ‘yon naging hadlang para maka tulog ako samantalang siya ay natulog na.

I wear again my clothes and leave him in the room. I stayed in the sofas for a couple of hours hugging my knees and even it hurts down there I'm still awake thinking about what happen earlier.

“You still awake.”

Asa voice is hoarsely and his hairs are messed up. He only wear a boxer gosh it's freezing outside by the way there's a heater in the apartment kaya siya nakakapag suot ng boxer pala.

“If you are thinking about her we are nothing anymore. I can't cheat to anyone whenever I'm in a serious relationship.”

He walked through the refrigerator and open it and take some foods that I'm stocking for one month. Tinitipid ok ‘yang pagkain ko na ‘yan e.

“Am I a rebound? Kasi kaka break up niyo lang tapos ito nandidito ka sa apartment ko at you and I making out.”

I seriously asked him but he didn't answered to my question instead he put back his sweater shirt.

He is back again in his senses.

“It is a one nightstand only and you are going back again to Tokyo, right?”

We didn't used protection what I mean is he didn't put a condom in his penis. And I'm pissed off.

“Yes it is a one nightstand but I don't make rebound just to forget her. I have a feelings for you. The day I meet you at that place I know that I want you to be in my side. It's a wrong timing that I had a fiancée and I broke up with her because I'm going to blame myself you know.”

What the- is he even serious about saying that words to me? And I'm a little bit flattered about his words.

“Fuck off. You just broke up with her and that is not good thing-.”

Kinabigla ko ng ilapat niya ang labi niya sa akin and another red face again! Plus my heartbeat is beating so fast nang inalis niya ang labi niya sa aking mga labi ay hinawakan niya ng mahigpit ang kamay ko tiyaka niya ako hinarap para kausapin.

“I don't want her. I want you.”

Gosh. Nagpapadala lang ba ako sa mga matatapos niyang salita?

Woah! Hinding hindi ako bibigay basta basta kailangan ko maging maingat para hindi naman ako mahulog ng bigla bigla.

“Bitaw na pipilitin ko matulog.”

At talagang binitawan niya ako at he didn't follow me at all in the room.

Huminga ako ng malalim para sabihin at ipaalala sa sarili ko kung handa na ba talaga ako ulit maki pag relasyon sa taong kakakilala ko lang?

Mahirap pa din talagang kalimutan ang mamatayan ng anak para naman kay Felix na dati kong asawa na ngayon ay pumanaw na din ay minahal ko naman siya kahit papaano pero iba ang naramdaman ko ng una ko makita si Asa sa coffee shop, something special about him.