ONESELF (Completed) ✅

XVIII

SHAYE

Hindi pa din ako maka get over sa nangyari kagabi dahil nga sa na meet ko lang naman ang daddy ni Asa.

Pero get over na dahil sa kailangan ko mag handa ng pumasok sa trabaho. Kahit na mataas na ang posisyon ko ay kailangan early bird pa din to set a good example to my colleagues.

A white blouse with ruffles and pinarisan ko ng peach pant, nude color high heels. Syempre di mawawala ang hand bag ko na di naman kamahalan masyado.

Isang bowl of corn flakes cereal with a lots of milk nalang ang umagahan ko.

It's kinda boring this day because Asa will going to a business trip to Philippines. Wala akong mapag lilibangan habang wala siya kundi ang dating routines ko nalang. Go to work and back to house do some cleaning around the house and then eat, sleep and for the last of all does some work and ended up being sleep in my table.

A week later...

Asa show up somewhere in my house. I give him the password of the door so he can in or out in my apartment anytime he wants.

"How's your week in the Philippines? How's the business there?"

Kaka upo niya lang sa tabi ko pinugpog ko na siya ng tanong.

He kissed me in my forehead and replied to my questions to him.

"Honestly, it's kinda boring and you know money are the one's ruling the business so, I finished it off in one week the contracts and so on already and then visits my dad's family. And I'm so sorry I forget to say that they want to see my girlfriend and that is you,right?"

I just shrugged and give him a tight hugged. To say that 'I missed him so much.'

"Anyway why not we go to a trip in Kyoto?" Hindi na ako sumagot dahil sa may iba ako na iniisip.

And I wake up from my dreams...

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"Shaye you better see a specialist." I know from his tone na sincere siya sa sinasabi niya na mag patingin na ako dahil sa sobrang depressed na talaga ako. My dreams make me depressed and the death of my husband, and my precious little son.

Kung sino man ang lalaking nakikita at nakakasama ko sa panaginip ko ay malaking pala isipan yun.

"Yeah. Susunduin mo yang sinasabi mo." I just nodded my head and go to bed again.

"Papasok na ako. You better go out sometimes." Then I hear the door shut.

It was so boring here. I'm alone again. I wish I can see his ghost. I missed him and my little son.

To end my own story I go to the place where the accident happened. Heh. It was a nice dream for me. A new life and a new love life. But I can't escape my own life from the reality.

It's refreshing here and a nice view pero dito namatay ang mag ama ko. Pwes dito din matatapos ang buhay ko para magkasama na kaming tatlo. I missed them. Good and bad memories with my husband.

One.

Two.

Three.

No more pain here in my heart.

       
          REST IN PEACE SELF.

THE END. 

 
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        And the new life will rise💕