Her Life Was Falling Apart

Diary Entry Twelve

Entry Twelve,
I think Taylor knows that I have a crush on someone. The good thing is she doesn't know who I have a crush on since I don't talk about the people I like because I know how my family would react when I tell them that I like a girl.

Like Taylor and Chris can go on and on about who they like but when I say I like someone I get weird looks and the oh so famous "aren't you a lesbian?" To which I have to explain that I'm bisexual, to which they ignore and tell me who confused I am about myself or I haven't met the right guy yet and need to look harder.

I think I hold everything in about who I like or who I'm interested in because I hate having to explain that just because I like a guy at the moment or a girl it doesn't make me confused or choosing a side. I like people and I really wished everyone in my family would understand that.
LMJ

Closing the book I turned to face Lauren who was sitting on her bed. "When you came out did you have anyone who supported you?" I asked softly. Lauren nodded "yeah my aunt Sophie. She was always there for me until she died in a car crash." She tells me.

"What was she like?" I asked.

Lauren smiles as her eyes lit up. "Oh she was amazing! Every weekend when I was a child she would always take Chris, Taylor and myself back to her house to spend the weekend with her and it was great. Chris and Taylor would usually leave me out but she would always pull me aside and I'd get to help her make cookies," she sighed softly. "When my family would leave me out and ignore me she was always there to cheer me up and just spend time with me. We did everything I wished my parents would do with me but so much more fun because she was so cool. She was the only person in my family who loved me for me." She tells me.

Moving to sit next to her I turned to face her completely. "I know we haven't know each other that long but if you ever need anything I'm here for you Lo." I told her. Green eyes looked up at me and lit up as she smiled. "Thank you Dinah."

After hanging out with Lauren during lunch I quickly headed back to school with actual seconds to spare as I ran inside and ran straight to class quickly taking my seat in the back next to Camila. "Where the hell have you been?" She asked. I glanced at her "no where you want to be." I said. She scuffed "you were with her again weren't you?" She questioned harshly. I nodded "yeah I was." I said. Camila frowns "you're going to get caught Dinah." She said. "And when you do don't say I didn't warn you."

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After school I decided to head back over to where Lauren was staying but before I could even think about that I was pulled into the bathroom by Camila. "What do you want?" I asked. She glares at me. "You need to stop going to see her. You're going to get in big trouble when your dad and the rest of the officers find out you knew where she was and didn't say anything." She says.

I rolled my eyes as I crossed my arms over my chest. "No I'm not. I have been very careful as to no make it super suspicious." I told her. "Don't worry I know what I'm doing."