Her Life Was Falling Apart

Diary Entry One

Lauren Jauregui was a girl that very little people knew about. Yes she was known around the school for her involvement with the art club and choir but that was all anyone knew of her. They didn't know much about her other than what she was involved in or the people she was saw hanging out with on occasions. One of those people being head cheerleader and dance squad member Normani Kordei Hamilton.

Normani and Lauren would be seen hanging out often and people would often think that they were dating but that couldn't be further from the truth. Her and Normani were just friends and that's all they would ever be. However underneath her slightly happy persona laid a very broken girl that nobody knew about. Nobody knew just how much pain Lauren was in and nobody really cared until she disappeared about two days ago.

Her parents weren't exactly worried about her well-being or her whereabouts they just wanted her to come home and stop embarrassing them and their family. They could care less if she was unharmed they just wanted the media and news off of them and that didn't make any sense until I found her diary outside of my front door.

I wasn't sure who left it or why they would want me to have it because me and Lauren weren't even friends! In fact I don't think we actually liked each other because we have never talked. I knew the basic details of Lauren. She was a green eyed brunette with tattoos who loved all forms of art and honestly that was all I needed to know. So when I got her diary I truly couldn't help but feel intrigued to know more about the mysterious girl. I kind of wanted to know her every secret and this diary would tell m those. So sitting in the back of the library I opened up the first page and read it.

Entire One,
I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to write in this diary, considering that I don't have a lot to talk about. I know my therapist says that writing things down is a good way to let feelings and emotions out but I just feel so silly telling my inner thoughts to a book.

I mean what's a book actually going to do? I'm not just going to magically stop having my negative thoughts and honestly I feel like writing them down actually might be worst. It might intensify those negative thoughts that I have and boy do I have a lot of bad thoughts.

How could I not? My parents treat me like crap. My siblings have bullied me since I was born and I've been iced out by several family members because of my bisexuality. They think I'm a sinner and what ever happens to be is deserved because of my bisexual status.

It's hard knowing that the people who are supposed to love you and protect you could turn their backs on you just because of how you identify. It hurts because I know if the roles were reversed I would never turn my back on them. But then again not everyone is like me.
LMJ

The bell ringing had me quickly closing her diary and shoving it in my bag before heading to my next class. Which funny enough was one that I shared with Lauren and with her not being here things are going to be so tense. I can already feel it.

Sitting in class I couldn't help but think about what Lauren wrote about her parents and how they didn't care about her. I mean everyone know that Mike and Clara Jauregui were very strict with their kids but it seemed like they treated Lauren like she wasn't even part of the family. I remember this one time at a potluck the school had they were so proud of Chris and Taylor, yet when it came to anything about Lauren they didn't seem as happy or proud about anything she did and that had always bothered me. Why did they treat Lauren so badly? How much do they actually know about Lauren's disappearance?