Seventeen years old when he broke my heart,
Seventeen day later when another picked up the piece,
Seventeen years together,
Seventeen thousand problem,
Seventeen days of reliving my past and finding a new future,
Seventeen minutes until I took my l...
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Taehyung AND I met the second semester of our senior year of high school when his dad was transferred for his job. I can still recall every single detail about the day he walked into my senior English class. I can remember exactly what I was wearing, exactly what the teacher was saying when the door opened and he walked in the room and exactly the way my stomach flip-flopped when I looked up from the doodles in my notebook and watched him saunter in and take the seat right next to me.
I was only two weeks into my recovery that day. My boyfriend of two years,Jeon Jungkook, broke up with me via a note delivered by his best friend and shattered my heart into pieces. Like a typical high school girl, I thought my world had ended and nothing would ever make me smile again. Then,Kim Taehyung sat down next to me, asked to borrow a pencil and my shredded heart was never to be thought of again.
We started dating three weeks later. We were voted Best Couple, Cutest Couple and Couple Most Likely to Get Married. After graduation, Taehyung convinced me to hold off on my dream of art school and stay with him, close to home, so we wouldn't have to be separated. Even though I lost some of my passion for art when my old boyfriend broke things off, I knew I had talent and I shouldn't let it go to waste just because my first high school relationship didn't work out. I promised myself that once we were making enough money to be comfortable, I'd take some time off and enroll in art school.
Taehyung and I were polar opposites in every way, but there was something about us together that just worked. I was quiet, studious and not really big into partying. He was loud, outgoing and the life of every party. He was the bad boy of every parent's nightmare and, in the beginning, I think that's what attracted me to him. I wanted to be with someone who didn't remind me of Jungkook. I wanted someone dark, edgy and exciting and that's exactly what I found in Taehyung. Looking back, maybe I should have
seen the signs. Maybe I should have realized that someone's core personality never really changes as they get older. We fought many times over the years because of his constant need to go out, his tendency to drink too heavily and come home too late and his refusal to grow up. I thought he would settle down after we got married. I thought he would be content in the life we built together and his need to hang out with people who weren't the best influences would be pushed aside.
I thought I would be enough for him.
Looking back on our relationship, I know that my insecurities are what made me continue to stay with him even though he hurt me. When you've only had sex with one person, when you've only really loved one man your entire life, how can you even think about walking away? How can you even begin to move on when he's all you've ever known? Every time I uncovered another lie and thought about leaving, this is what ran through my mind. We grew up together, we knew everything about each other... how could I ever have that with anyone else and why would I even want to? All that time, all that effort, all the memories and the life we built together... throwing it all away just seemed like the worst possible decision.
