Speak to Me

8-Planning

~Dan's POV~

Nothing hurts more than heartbreak.

There is no pain worse than feeling your heart being ripped out of your chest, thrown to the ground, and stomped on.

Nothing could hurt more than seeing the pain in the one person you swore you never would hurt's eyes, knowing YOU were the one who put it there.

That's how I felt with Phil.

I slowly walked the short distance back to my house after telling Phil. I felt like complete utter shit. I was a crying wreck. I probably deserved it though. No, not probably. I knew I deserved this pain. Phil was the sweetest most kindhearted person on this entire planet. And I hurt him. 

I walked into my house and wiped my eyes. I saw my dad in the living room. I fucking hated him right now. Because of him I couldn't be with Phil, I couldn't be with a person who made me happy and feel cared for and that I loved with all my being.

Moving past him before he could even take a breath I ran up to my room slamming the door shut as hard as I could. I was pretty sure I broke it but I didn't care. I didn't care about anything at this moment except for Phil.  He probably didn't see it like that anymore though.

Laying in my bed I wrapped the blankets tightly around me and cried into the pillows. I didn't want to go to school the next day and see him. Or anyone. I kind of wanted to just lay in my bed and all but rot away into nothing. But I knew I had no choice.

~Next Day~

I slowly brought myself out of bed once morning hit. I looked myself in the mirror. Did I look awful. Tear stains across my cheeks.My eyes were completely bloodshot and puffy. I knew it'd be a rough day. I slowly got myself ready and went out the door, once again ignoring my father as I did, I knew my mother would be upset about it. But I couldn't care less right now.

The walk to school was extremely boring. I typically walked with Phil, me and him always met up at the corner. Shit. I'd see Phil walking past the corner. I stopped in a panic and thought to myself. I couldn't bear to see him now. If I did, I'd completely have a breakdown then and there. I swallowed thickly and decided to just keep going, and if I saw him. Run.

I arrived close to the corner and was surprised to see that it was empty. Phil wasn't there. It was bittersweet not to see him. 

I made my way into the school after the rest of the sad lonely walk. I saw PJ and Chris and went over to them slowly.

"Wow, you look like shit," Chris commented.

I rolled my eyes, "Well thanks, you're such a good friend," I said quietly looking down at my shoes with a sigh, "Rough night..."

"Yeah we know what happened," PJ sighed, "You're an idiot."

"I know I'm an idiot, I'm a dumbfuck basically..." I leaned against the row of lockers quietly just staring down at the ground.

"Phil's not here today, he stayed home, didn't want to see you," Chris explained to me. I felt my heart break even more at that.

"Great..." I muttered out softly and wiped a stray tear from my cheek, "I hate myself so much..."

"Don't talk like that Dan," PJ said quickly, "You may have done a dumb thing, but everyone does dumb things, you just gotta make up with Phill, it's obvious you still want to be with him, so why did you even break up?"

"My dad won't let me date him, at all, he said if I don't break up with him he'd kick me out and disown me..." I felt my voice start to shake slightly. I willed myself not to cry in the middle of the halls, I'd wait until I got home to cry again.

"Well jesus christ..." Chris sighed and ran his hand over his face, "You're father is a piece of work..."

"You're telling me...but I really wish he'd come around," I said, "I don't want to be apart from Phil, anytime ever, I love him, I love him so much..."

"We know," The two said at the same time. PJ continued speaking on, "If only there was a way for you and Phil to be together and your dad to never know about it..."

Chris perked his head up and smiled, "Well let's just do that then! Go make up with Phil and we can cover for you when you want to hang out with Phil and he doesn't have to know."

"I don't know if my dad will even buy that," I sighed and thought quietly, "But if it means being with Phil, I'll gladly lie to my father for the time being."

"But Phil told me this morning he doesn't want to see Dan anytime in the near future, who even says he'll take him back right now?" PJ asked, "And I know for sure that his mum won't let you just waltz in and take him back after what happened."

"I have an idea for Phi to take Dan back, but it'll take some planning," Chris said, "Dan are you free Friday then?"

"Well yeah," I told them, "Why? What's your idea?"

"Just leave that to me," Chris smiled, "I'll let you in soon enough, I'll be at your house after school to discuss it alright?"

I gave a nod, "Alright," the bell rang as I spoke, "I'll see you guys later then."

THANKS FOR THE DEATH THREATS GUYS YOU'RE SO NICE TO ME WOW. BUT STAY TUNED FOR MORE COOLIO AND POSSIBLY DRAMATICAL THINGS.

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