My sad life

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This is going to be a serious fucking rant so if you don't care keep scrolling.

Me and my mom share messages on our iPad. I can see hers she can see mine. She was messaging my brother asking why he didn't tell everyone last night. Like what did he not say. She told a few people and then they asked my brother about it. Then he texted my mom and said 'why are you telling people I got married' I guess because I'm a child I'm not supposed to know about this shit but I have a fucking sister. My brother is fuckin married and no one is telling me this shit and now I don't even trust them to come out. I was going to come out that night to my brother but he does not seem to give a fuck about me. I also have cried myself to sleep the last week because I feel like I'm loosing everyone that is important to me. I also found out she has severe mental heath issues but that's not the problem the problem is that they don't tell me. They think I'm a child and I can't know anything. Quarantine is not making anything better and raising my anxiety with my parents not even caring and just pressuring me to do things that I can't do. I can't do school this way. It just doesn't work for my brain. I am so behind and I can't stay like this for much longer. I have tried to connect to some people but they just shut me out again. I feel like I have no purpose and I just don't want to be here anymore. I hate feeling this way and I hate not being able to help myself. I just can't do this. 

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