Beyond Limits

Sneak peek

I considered what we had as a magical love story. I  used to dream a  love story that ends with the cliche 'We lived happily ever after' but everything messed up the moment i knew what we had is not real.

"Cut the crap, zahir! I had enough "

"Baby, listen! I'm sorry, okay? But everything I showed is fucking real.  Don't just throw everything away I know you felt my love and I learned to love you along the process. I never knew I could be this drown from love, baby " He said almost begging and I can almost see the tears in his eyes, his face is a bit red while his  eyes screams tension.

"Don't just throw everything away? Alam mo ba ang sinasabi mo? The least I can do as of now is to save myself from the shit you had made!" 

The corners of his eyes crinkled with what i said. He seems like a good actor but I got tired in everything, well everything comes to an end.  I took the risk upon loving him but nothing was given in return but a heartbreak. His words seems to be invalid anymore I cannot feel the love in his sweet mouth. When he speak magical words, I felt nothing but betrayal.

"Stop feeding me lies, Please!  You played the game too well na hindi ko nakita na paglalaro lang pala ang gusto mo. Sana sinabi mo nang masabayan kita sa paglalaro hindi 'yung ako ang gagawin mong instrumento sa laro. Ano masaya ba? Masaya ka ba sa larong ginawa mo at nanalo ka sa huli?"

The game you've set made the both of us broken. I love you, I do, but this is not the love I wanted.

" What the fuck, Kinsley! I love you. At least believe that!  You think I have urge to feel the triumph knowing that any moment from now what we had will eventually come to an end?"

His eyes is burned with anger upon saying those words. You can't change my decision with your good dramas. The reason why we had to meet on this special day is to put everything to an end. Let's end this relationship the  same day we started it.

"  I'm sorry. The pain you've cause is enough for me to let go from this love." 

Woah! What a great actress I am saying those things calmly looking straight to his eyes. His eyes darted on me but i never show any emotions. He stared at me for a moment and sigh heavily then reached for my hand and held it tight like it's what he wanted to hold for the rest of his life. I smiled at him and hold his hands more tightly.  I'm good at this, I'm good at pretending. Tama na zahir mahal kita pero tama na.

"Didn't you feel my love, baby?"

He looked so frustrated upon asking me. I felt it,swear. That's what i wanted to answer but immediately erase that thought and smiled at him.

" We started on the wrong foot"
I answered him, dismissing his question.

" Then, let's start all over again! I can court you everyday if that's what you like"   

"I'm not asking for it and I'm not giving any chances" I smiled at him while saying that like I meant it.

Akala ba niya madaling kalimutan ang lahat? Kahit pa magsimula kami ulit. The scars will always remain the way it used to be. We will just create another stain and worse,  a scar that will forever haunt us.

"Enough with the lies, shall we? I'm ending it here. Your love is too much to handle and maybe I can't afford to be broken twice by accepting your love again"  I muttered peacefully upon staring at his eyes which screams so much emotions. Hindi ko kaya ang sakit pa na idudulot mo sa darating na panahon. Let's save ourselves here, atleast.

" Didn't you feel the love?"

He asked again but I never answered.  With that, I turned my back and ready to leave the place but he hugged me from behind and whispered the most  magical words I heard. The words which made my heart pound, made me felt the butterflies and rainbows but I never imagined that these words will also break me apart leaving me like an  unsolved puzzle.

" Lets be friends"

I offered him friendship, instead.He looked at me with disbelief and let go of my hands.

" Friends? We can't be friends, anymore" He declared and stared  at me intently while clenching his jaw. This situation brings him discomfort I can see through his actions.He is uncomfortable when he place both of his hands at the back of his neck.

" Let's get back to being strangers?"
I asked him to assure my conclusion

" Of course not! I will always see you as something else and not as a friend. I love you, Kinsley, I do. I'm sorry for breaking you, I'm sorry about what happened to us. Promise I'll win you back And that time I will make sure that you'll fall hard enough to hold unto my love forever"

There it go again. The chills he can gave me with his deep eyes and magical words.

" Enough with your lies,  let's face life ahead of us without each others presence"

I turned my back to my safe haven which in turn became my greatest downfall.

He pulled me back  to  close the gap between us and stared on each others eyes while pressing our foreheads together. He stared on my lips and I do the same before he  leaned forward to kiss me for the last time, at this very moment all I wished is for the time to stop and savor this magical moment,  but I pulled back. How do you make goodbye less painful? I never face death, but this break up mirrored that scenario, burrying half of you 6 feet under the ground. Tama nga sila
'Huwag mong gawing mundo ang sana ay Tao lang'

" Goodbye" I turned my back to hide the pooled of tears. I will not let you see the regret written on my face. Yes, I do  smile but i am hurt, I should have known better but I was blinded.

" I love you, too " I muttered, enough for him not to hear what I just said.

I used to think  love was real but i was wrong and maybe in the end, i was meant to be alone.