Lets play a game

I'm sorry......just.....I'm sorry

A/N okay so i know it took forever to update or whatever and im sorry for that i really am. Anyways watch the video becuase i love this song and it goes with the begining of the chaper well. And again im sorry for not updating sooner.

He looked at me with pleading eyes guilt also very evident in them before he said "just listen to me."

I looked at him disgusted "Excuse me. Listen to you. No you listen me." I said pointing at my chest" What you just said out there hurt. For you to say something like that, for you to even comment on my weight when you of all people know what I’ve been through. Hell you were the one who comforted me because no one else would. You were the one who held me while I cried every single last one of my tears out because I hid what I felt about that situation inside. But you seem to always get it out of me one way or another, didn’t you."

 By now I felt the tears brim along my eyes, just threating to come out. He then hung his head in guilt while he was now drowning in it. I continued in with my lecture at this point due to the fact that I had been paused for a few moments.

 "Why would you even suggest that I went to fat camp? Seeing how you were the one who told me NEVER to go one of those times I was crying. You were th-''

 He cut me off just as I was about to finish my sentence by saying "stop" in the most faint voice ever. I hesitated slightly before saying “what."

 "I said stop" he replied a little more strongly now. I glared at him strongly before tilting my head to the side ever so slightly.

 "Why should I. I’m just speaking the truth, confronting you on the first thing that you have ever said that has truly hurt me. I’m mean yeah sure when you picked on me before I never took it too heart because I knew what you were saying wasn’t true. But when you ask me, with hesitation I might add, about going to fat camp yeah I took that heart"

 I paused for yet another moment before he popped off with something I have never in my whole life heard him say to me. The next thing he said to me surmised me so much that I stood shocked for multiple moments before answering him.

 "I’m sorry......just......am sorry." he said it with so much sorrow dripping from his voice that I didn’t even recognize it has his. The only thing I could muster up for a reply was a simple "what". It was so quiet, so faint that I wasn’t even sure he heard me until he took a step forward, finally looking into my eyes.

 "I’m sorry" he said even more strongly taking a step forward. "Forgive me" Looked at him shocked before I replied with what I thought instantly.

 "What you said really hurt me. Hell you had me in tears and you should know I don’t cry very often." I said taking a step back, just as he took a step forward.

 I realize that, and I just told am sorry. Hell you of all people know I don’t say that very often." He took a step forward and I took another step back.

 "let me give you a scenario," I replied "if I were to take a plate and smash it on the ground until it shatters then look at it and say 'sorry' would the plate still be broken. The answers yes so why would you saying sorry fix anything at all that you just said to me down there." I took yet another step back hitting my wall against the shelf in my closet. He took another step forward and placed his hands on either side of my head resting them evenly on the shelf.

 "No your right saying sorry won’t really fix anything aside from the fact that you know I meant is when I said it."

 We stay there staring at each other a few moments. Looking right into each other’s eyes. From this close up me can see that his light brown eyes are not only brown but have specks of green and strips of gold flowing through them.

 Before I knew what was happening he glanced down at my lips, then quickly staring back into my eyes. I did the exact same thing he did and a sexy smirk was instantly placed upon his lips. He slowly leans forwards just as I do. Both of our eyes flutter closed and before I know it his lips are placed ever so lightly on mine before he pulls back slightly as if waiting for my reaction.

 I looked up at him from under my lashes before I kissed him. I pushed my lips to his and they moved in sync. He didn’t hesitate one bit at this point. He kissed me with so much passion and I kissed him back with just as much. I couldn’t help but think that I wouldn’t mind doing this again sometime as our lips moved even more in sync. It was almost effortless for me to kiss him seeing as I just followed in his lead. If someone were to tell me two months ago that I would be in my closet kissing my brothers best friend someone who has messed with me my entire life, I would simply laugh in their face and either direct them to the nearest mental hospital or refer them to the best mental health doctor I know of. We seemed to be there for only minutes before I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

 I pulled back quickly and fixed myself before answering my door out of breath. It was Dimitri. Great.

 "Yes," I answered decently breathlessly trying to pull it off like I was just annoyed. As he went to reply I took the chance to walk to my bed and waving my hand indicating he could come in. Using this distraction as a way to catch my breath again. He walked in and stood at the foot of my bed with his hands placed in his pockets.

 ''I was wondering if you happened to know where Ashton is. Last I heard he came up here to say sorry...which I highly doubt he actually did," he replied with a small chuckle. I scoffed lightly.

 "Yeah umm...he did come up here to say sorry. And he did but then he left right after he said it so I’m not really sure where he went, sorry," I said with a small shrug. He looked at me as if trying to figure out whether or not I was lying before settling on a confused look.

 "Okay, I was just making sure. Wouldn’t want to find out something I wouldn’t want to like I don’t know you and him hanging out in a more....romantic....way."

 I looked at him wide eyed as if he were stupid and scoffed. I gave him an 'are you stupid' look before shooing him away and out of my room. A few seconds later I sprinted to my door, shut it quickly and locked it, for caution of anyone coming in and finding us together. I ran to my closet and opened the door.

 "Okay that was way to close. I'll leave then you can leave a few minutes later." I said not giving him one moment to speak even though he looked like he wanted to. I ran to my door, unlocked it and shut it again. This was going to be super awkward for us. Okay. No I will not speak for him, it will be awkward for me. How even did I get myself into this?