Teach Me: JJK ✔

Because of me

Flashback Ends :

"What happened , Jungkook ? Anything wrong ?" , my mother asked while focusing on her stitching . She still didn't notice my tears .

"M-mom , am I actually the reason behind dad's demise ?" , I sobbed while my breath hitched as I saw her instant change in reaction . She darted her eyes at my face , checking out every guilt plastered on it .

"How do you suppose me to answer that question ? We had decided on not talking about this ever again ." , she said , while trying her best to not make herself get affected by the flashbacks . Seeing her in that state made me feel guilty than before .

"Mom , I want to know the answers . These untold truths should be exposed to me . I'm your son after all-" , I was cut off by my mother glaring at me .

"What if I said that you were never my son ? That I never accepted your presence as my son after your father passed away because of you ? Do you realise what loss did you bring in our family ? And even now , you stay worthless and useless . Can't get your salary on time , can't get married and on top of that , you fell for your student ? What all shame are you going to bring for me ? Do you want me to die too ?"

Closing my eyes , I tolerated every word which pierced through my heart . There in the room was Y/N , who was slowly losing trust towards me , and then there's my mother , who finally expressed her hate for me .

"This sweater ...... this sweater was being stitched for you . Because I atleast wanted to act like I care for you when all I want is you to give me your money and rot out because you aren't worth of my family . Your not worth of anything , Jungkook . Nothing ." , she said , while throwing the sweater at my face , rushing outside her room .

I was definetely not worth of anything . Because of me , my father was dead . Because of me , Y/N was being negative . Everything was happening because of me .

Screaming in frustration , I bursted into millions of tears . Those tears turned into lakes of tears , as I decided to end myself for good .

Searching for the razor to self harm myself , I rummaged through the drawers when I heard my mother exclaim .

"Jungkook ! What's wrong with Y/N ?" , she screamed as I rushed to the room . The door was slightly opened with my mother staring at Y/N laid on the bed , with a bottle of poisonous pills lying next to her . While poison spilled from her mouth in the form of foam .

I fell on my knees seeing Y/N being in that state . Her unconscious body made me realise that I was slowly being the reason for everything . Everything was happening because of me .

"Jungkook , if she passes away in our house , because of you , I'll not spare you . Report her into the hospital right now ." , said my mother before leaving to mind her buisness .

Slowly crawling to Y/N , I noticed how many pills had she consumed . Caressing her hair , I slowly weny further to carry her and rush to the nearest hospital to report her .

If anything shall happen to her , I'll end myself . Whatever I have been taught , I'll forget it , and move on to hell or heaven . That was finally decided .

After 40 minutes .....

Walking down the hospital aisle with Y/N still in my arms , I rushed here and there , to find a suitable doctor to treat her . After getting help from a nurse , she was finally admitted into the treatment room .

I never knew I was such a bad spirit for everyone . Everything unfortunate was being caused by me . All the flashbacks were already bothering me , but Y/N's death was going to be the reason of my death .

Because I loved her . I genuinely loved her . I cared for her , trusted her with all my love and trust . She was precious . And we had promised that we would live and die together . And that's exactly what I was going to do . Die if she would pass away .

Running my hands through my hair , I impatiently waited for the doctor to inform me what's wrong with her . Soon , the treatment room's door opened , and the doctor arrived .

I rushed to the doctor in the same manner as I did when my dad had been admitted . Deja Vu was felt in my nerves , gushing .

"She has consumed a lot of poisonous pills . Was no one there to take care of her at that time ?" Guilt rushed into me again . I shouldn't have gone to mother . Any way , she just confessed her hate to me .

"I'm sorry , it was my fault . I wasn't there with her at that time ." , I said while looking down . The doctor sighed . "We are sorry , but it shall take a time to treat her . We aren't even sure if she's alive-"

I stopped the doctor in his words . "Make sure that she has to be alive . Because if she dies , I'll not live anymore too . Remember that ." , I said while turning away to let those tears fall out .

The doctor had already left the corridor , while I just stood there , crying in despair . Everything was happening because of me . Everything was being done because of me . Only if I was lucky , I wouldn't have been unlucky for my loved one's .

The corridor was slowly getting empty as the time ticked away . I still stayed where I was . I was definetely making myself starve and thirst for water , but I didn't try to look at the drinks . All what mattered was Y/N . She mattered a lot to me .

The treatment door finally opened in some minutes , with the doctor coming with an expression of despair . My heartbeat was racing as he approached me with that look . I was soon going to die . I felt that .