(John/delirious pov)
Me and the guys were playing Gta. Vanoss had just shot me and then yelled " IM SORRY JOHN BUT WILDCAT SHOT ME FIRST SO I CAME AFTER YOU " we all laughed and i yelled back " YOU MOTHERFUCKER!" of course me and Evan were just joking. Well, i for sure was. I have had a little crush on vanoss for a while now.The only one who knows about it is tyler, since i trust him enough. But we all just moved in together. Well in the same apartment building at least.
We got off and he texted me..
Evan: Ay delirious Wanna play by ourselves? Im sick of lui blowing me up😂
John: Sure. But im not promising i wont blow you up.
We played with each other for awhile. Then we ended our video and went to sleep. I had this weird dream...
Evan was yelling at me.nothing bad, but he was just yelling..
" JOHN!!!!!" i heard him yell. I felt as if i couldnt say anything. I looked down at my hands. Blood.. i looked around to find vanoss. " W-why are you doing this.." i heard a voice say. It wasnt evans. It was tylers.. " Because im just delirious. HAHAHAHA" i laughed crazily.
" Wake up."
A voice told me. " What..?" I responded.
" WAKE UP JOHN!" i heard the voice yell. Everything went black and i saw Evan standing over me. " You good dude?" Evan said. "Y-yeah." I responded. Evan looked confused " are you sure..? You were screaming my name and Crying. What were you dreaming about?" Shit. I really screamed his name?! What an idiot move JOHN "oh. Yeah im fine. It was just all confusing. " i said. Obviously a lie. He knew but then yelled looking toward the hallway. " HES FINE TYLER!" he shouted. I heard tylers voice yell back. " OKAY!"
Vanoss looked at me and laughed " God dude your such a idiot. I know your lying. Whats going on?" He started to become serious again. " i just had a bad dream. Thats all. " vanoss looked at me and rolled his eyes " Tell me why. You were screaming my name, crying , oh and did i mention you tightened your grip on my hand when i tried to wake you up?" Fuck. I really did that?! " Evan. Im fine. " He looked away and mumbled something. A little to low to hear. " What?" I said trying to figure out what he was saying. He turned around and said " You said one more thing. " i was confused. What did i say? Why is he so serious about it. Why? " You said that you were in love. But i didnt hear a name. I-i Its not important. Get some sleep delirious." He walked out. What.the.actual.fuck. Does he know?! No.. i dont think so. Better to just keep to myself..
That night we all got on Gta and Vanoss wasnt talking to me. " VANOSS AND MINI IM COMING AFTER YOU! YOU SONS OF BITCHES!" I yelled. Craig said something. But Vanoss didnt. I just heard him say something faintly. " Im gonna get off guys. Goodnight. " what? He was in the middle of recording. I need to know whats happening. Everyone said bye and i said i was going to get off too.i was going to go to Evans. I got to his door and knocked. Evan answered and sighed. " are you okay? You were acting weird." I said nervously. " Delirious can we talk?" He said trying not to keep contact with me. I nodded and we sat down on the couch.
" i heard what you said. What were you actually dreaming about?" He said. " well.. i was dreaming about something insane i did. It was a nightmare. I was hurting everyone. But the 2 main people i would pay the most attention too were..you and tyler. But I felt so bad. You guys are my best friends and i didnt know what to do." I said almost in a whimper. Evan hugged me. He knew i had mental issues. But he didnt know i had these...visions?..nightmares..? Im not even sure.
Tyler texted me " dude why did you and evan get off? It was just starting to get fun!" I didnt respond. I felt safe with evan. I didnt want the hug to end. He made me feel like a normal person. As if i wasnt a maniac. Evan looked into my eyes " John. You will be okay. Ill be here with you." I really wanted to kiss him. But a tear escaped my eye. " thanks evan. But one more thing.." i said. Was I about to tell him?no... " Yeah?" He said. I said wondering what i was going to confess. " I dont know if you will hate me.." i said quietly. " I could never hate you." He said. " But i like--oh uhm give me a second." I finally responded to tyler " tyler. Im scared. Do i tell vanoss?! "
Tyler: YES DUDE!
John: But what if he rejects me?
Tyler: JUST DO IT PUSSY!!
" I like you evan." i said. Evan let go of me and backed up. " Y-you do? Are you serious?" He said Hesitantly. " Yes. Im serious." I said. " John i----" i cut him off " your straight. I know." I said turning away and walking towards the door. " not what i was going to say. Ive actually liked men for a while now. But i dont know if i like you.. give me time to think?" He said. I was shocked. Evan is into men..? Did i just hear that come out of HIS mouth?! I nodded and walked out. I called tyler" c-come over. Please. Bring lui and nogla and mini with you." I said. I just heard a slight " okay. I will"
5 minutes later i heard a knock on my front door. Lui was standing there with the guys behind him. " Tyler told us. So. What happened?" We all sat down and i told them. " Woah." Nogla said in disbelief. " hes gay?" Lui added. I nodded and we heard a knock on the front door. There was no one else it could be other then. Evan..
Im so sorry that i have to end it on a cliffhanger. Show it love and ill continue it!~Vanilirious
