Feelings

Epiphany

     That moment when you finally start to feel happy again after such a long time is one of the best moments I've ever had.

     But I can't help but feel like.. all that time sitting in my room and crying about how horrible of a person I am and how much I want to die were moments that could've been good ones, had I started to realize how good I am sooner. The art I could've created in those moments when I thought I'd never draw again. Maybe I could've gone on a few walks with my dogs, or made a few new friends around the neighborhood. When I think back on all that time wasted on my broken heart, I know it was all worth it in the end.

     I realized that those moments were the ones that would help me to better understand myself, and to not give up no matter how many times I fail, because life is more than just one try. I realize now that I have all the chances in the world to start again, and so does everyone else.

     Before I thought I wanted to die because I hated life, but I just wanted to die because I was afraid to live. To make mistakes and pick myself back up again afterwards. To take more chances and not regret them.. at least in the moment. And life is the biggest chance for me to live those moments I'll ever have.